HUIEN-

2011-05-29T16:18:00.002+08:00

I'm back here again! Because, i'm unhappy again.

Boy, you're really making me to break down.

I don't know what happen. Should i just forget it & let go?

I'm scare, today i make the decision of forget & let go, tmr, i'll start thinking of changing mind.

No mood, totally!

No mood for work, No mood for studies, No mood for projects, No mood for everything!

Boy, just fuck off.

2011-05-27T19:11:00.002+08:00

Darling! It's being long time since i call you darling. It has been a long time since i hear you call me baby too! I regretted, I feel that i'm gonna breakdown any moment soon.

Seriously, everyday i see you. You never know how i hard i wanna hug you. You let me feel that you doesn't care my presence at all. I know, it's me who initiated the break. &now, i regretted. Everytime, when we look into each other's eyes, i'm wondering, what're you thinking. Till now, i still don't believe what you had said to me are real. I don't want to believe at all.

Everyday, i'm like a fool, sitting infront of my lappy, like an idiot waiting for you to online. Just to know you're home, just to know you never block me. Everytime i saw you online, the urge i have that i wanna talk to you gets stronger. In my mind, there's nothing, but you. I've regretted!

There's so much i wanna say. There's so much i wanna ask. But, i don't have the courage. I've been wondering, why i let go so easily? You asked me, whether i want you to be serious or always joking? I want you to be serious, but i lied. I told you i want you to be always joking, I don't want you to change because of me. It's my fault, i shouldn't have blame you for being childish, or immatured. I regretted.

Maybe, maybe you forget everything that's about me, forget all the moments we're together. I know, we never being out for a lot of times. &reason is also because of me. I need to work. I keep putting you aeroplane. I know you're capable of hiding your emotions, but if you don't tell me you're unhappy because i've chosen work between you and work, i'll never ever know. You told me i should let out my emotions, so that you know what i'm thinking. But now, i know, you're the one who's hiding all your emotions. You let out happiness, you kept all your sadness, sorrows.

I've failed to be a girlfriend. Which guy doesn't like to play games? I shouldn't angry or sad because you spent more times at dota and anime than on me. I also spent all my times for work, and not you. But, you didn't blame me at all. Never, not even once. Thinking back, you were actually quite matured. It's me who's childish, petty.

I know, and very clear that, we can't go back.
Darling, just let me call you once last time, I'm sorry, but i still love you.

2011-05-11T14:30:00.002+08:00

I really don't know who can i turn to when i'm feeling down. Other than here, I don't know where to go to. My mind is filled of him from the first day of school. How to get rid of him? The reason of initate the break-up, is not that i don't like him anymore. Just that, he's not the guy i'm looking for or i need. I still like him, just that, i need to hold back all my feelings towards him. Friends are helping me to avoid him, to stay away from him. Although i know i should avoid him, should stay away from him, but how my heart thinks, only i know.

Everyday go to school, I still have the same feeling. The urge to see you.

I don't like myself to be like that. I feel so useless. I don't want to have the urge to see you.
I don't want!

I want to let go.
The words you last send me after I initiate break-up remains in my mind all day.
It hurts, it really do.

2011-04-02T22:37:00.004+08:00

I've been thinking about you.
Thinking of you since yesterday i saw you in school. You never leave my brain/heart at all. When you step into the classroom, my heart pounds damn fast. You look at me, i avoid your eyes. From that moment, I'm not myself anymore. I wanna to show you how well i can be without you. I wanna show you, without you, i can still be as happy. But, that's only what i wanna show to you.
It's not that i don't like you, it's not that i never like you before. I just can't feel the security that i always looking for from you. You leave me with all the question marks. You stab right into my heart without any hesitation.

I really miss you. I miss the days we walk to school together.

2011-03-25T15:47:00.002+08:00

Ended. I'll carry on my life without you.

It's the first time i met a guy like him. His dota is more important than his girl. Everything he said to me are fake. This word really means a lot to me. I'm starting to believe that guys can't be believe again. I think i need more time to put everything about him down. I admit, I'm still thinking about him, thinking about what he had said to me.

First time open up to tell my mum about a guy i like. First time bring a guy to cousin's outing. Everything happened so fast. It was just like a dream. And, it's time to wake up from the dream. No point holding on. No point thinking about it again and again how he able to make everything so real.

There's so much question marks in my mind since the day i initiated break-up. & I know, I'll not be able to find any answers.

2010-11-23T08:48:00.002+08:00

Okay, after reading your blog. I really feel like you are seriously are big basturd! I admit that i don't know that much as it's the problem between you and her. But, the way you wrote in your blog really pissed me off! You only think about how hurt you are. But, you will never ever think when you wanna check her phone/smses, how she felt? She definitely felt that you aren't giving her any trust and she definitely will feel that very insecure. It's you, yourself who uses your BAD temper and JEALOUSY to drive her away from your side.

Ohya, for your information. It's not that her family are hard to please. May i know how old are you already? Even is my own daughter, i won't be happy seeing her dating a man who is so much older than her. In addition, this man doesn't have any savings, doesn't have any car. For your info, not even a car license! And, this man is gonna reach his thirties! Of cus, the family of this girl will feel there's no securities for this girl in the future.

You aren't a man, seriously, that's what i feel! Till now, i feel that you aren't one! You ask your friend to comment on how that girl is. You've your eyes, you've your own feeling, your own brain, these kinds of matters, you still needa consult your friends? The girl wasn't the one who is SLUTTY! But, you're the one! Reading your blog makes me think that you're so DIRTY! Making girl-friends everywhere, praise every girls that they are pretty, etc! I really feel very ER XIN.

Without much savings, yet you still bear to spend large amount on things that used only a few times? She's so young, she should go thru more relationships than having the thoughts of settle down with you! You definitely aren't the right one for her. All of us can see it. I admit, you look younger than your actual age, but do you know?! Your actions are more childish that your look! You aren't giving the girl's family the feel/kind of trustworthy. The girl's family seriously can't trust you and handed her to you at all!

You lost her to another man! A man that suit her most? (I think so?) You've a very strong religious view towards your own god. Everyone should respect to god no matter which kind/types of god. But, you and the girl believe in different kinds of gods, yet she's willing to acc you to pray your god. You always comment on her bad sides, don't you have a lot of bad attitudes too? Come on, when a relationship ends, don't keep criticise one part, but open your big eyes and use your brain to think, what have you actually caused the relationship to end. Remember, your play a part in the relationship too!

Okay, after venting out my frustration after reading a guy's blog. Let me just write out some of my personal life. It's fast! Last year of today, i'm enjoying my holiday! Olevel just ended, and i have a long holiday. It's been a year. I feel days passes so fast, how you guys feel? Christmas is coming. Soon, newyear coming too! I've been quite close to a guy this few days. And i feel that i should stay a distance from him very soon! He's getting married next year February. Although i don't know his wife-to-be, i still am happy for them! Wondering if i should buy a present for them?! Maybe, i should stop all communications with him!

2010-09-29T18:27:00.008+08:00

2010-09-28T19:26:00.014+08:00

UNIVERSAL STUDIOS~

M&M(s) & Cousins :D

Let the pictures do the talkings.

I love the trip man! && of cus the steamboat with you guys!

LOVES!

2010-08-27T22:00:00.003+08:00

I'm sad. Seriously, i'm! Nobody will exactly know how sad i am. No one!
Why did he become like this? A scary + petty + fierce person.
I'm in blame too! I shouldn't, shouldn't even want him to apologise at all!
I'm in anger. I know that he doesn't mean to, he accidentally hurt me.
But, because of a word "sorry" he didn't say, i fed up. I'm sorry! I shld be the one who's saying sorry!
But i does not have the courage to do so. I want to, but i don't dare.
I scare you will reject my apology. I scare you will start scolding me again.
& I scare you scold me, and i'm unable to control my temper & shouted at you again.

Went to sch by own today just to get 3 textbooks which cost me S$132.
And it's freaking heavy. I need to carry it to FEP and back to panjang again ><
Back to panjang, buy somethings from BPP. bused home.

Went back home to put all the items. Out again with xw to SenjaG.
Bought bubble teas, ice-creams and grapes! hahaha!
She came to my hse, watched tv, talk talk, then she go meet ml.

Went to interview, it's successful, but family doesn't allow me to work this job.
It's too dangerous for me?!
SAD, going to find another job. I want to plan everyday packed!
So, i won't have excess times to think other things.

2010-08-16T22:42:00.002+08:00

Okay, i'm very tired now. But i still wanna post something..

Meet up with xw today, cabbed to keathong shopping centre for lunched.

&thanks shihui for leading the road to the MRT station from keathong shopping centre :D

Trained to bugis to shop, bought quite a couple of things, then off to FEP.

Shop...shop...shop. Then bused back to BPP~

Went to buy some items, sat in MAC to wait for dennisng.

He explained about the business he's having right now!

Hmmm, i found out, it's actually really very difficult for me to make a decision.

I think my family members have been to protective to me.

I'm lack of confident! Seriously, i don't even have a percent of confident to do things

or make a decision on my own. I feel so useless!

I've no confident in taking the risk by taking out $400+ for business.

I've no confident in doing well in the job, in finding so many pple to help me.

I've no confident that i seriously will make some money.

I've no confident! None At ALL! ):

What should i do to brace up my confident. TO you guys, maybe $400+ is not a big amt.

But to me, it is. It's my hard-earned money! Some are my parent's hard-earned money!

I seriously can't afford to take a risk which i've no confident in.

I don't know how to explain or describe the feeling i've now. But..., it's really confuse!

I want to earn more money, who doesn't? Everyone wants to earn as much as they can.

But. But. But. In my heart, in my brain covers with all the BUT(s)!

I can't make up my mind. I can't! And i have serious lack of confident!

I'm seriously very vexed nowadays!

Quarrels, decisions, timetables, schools, works...

I hate everything!

I mean it!

2010-08-13T23:38:00.003+08:00

Okay, i've lost a brother in a few hrs ago.

A brother who loves to play my hair which seriously irritates me, a brother
who loves to call me FOR FUN, a brother whose hand is dirty, yet loves to touch me, even my face!! Since he doesnt want me, than i've nothing to say, cause i know i'm not in wrong! He always use the same sentence to threaten me, last time i'm scare because i know i'm in wrong, sorry, but not this time. Do reflect yourself, vulgars all out suddenly, be more gentlemen! No vulgars! Brother called sister go and die, what a "good" brother he WAS. Our relationship given by parents was fragile, very fragile.

Anyone can break it, but he chose to break it himself, so let him be.

2010-08-11T00:06:00.004+08:00

Somehow, i feel myself like a loner. Did i think too much...? I hope i did!
In almost all relationships that i have had, i'm always the one who hurt the most!
I know it very clearly, i sure will get hurt in the end, i sure will get damn tired.
But, i still can't stop the feeling from growing on different people! ): I hate that feeling.
In the past, i have a friend to talk to, to tell all my secrets to that person. But now, i felt that we're all drifting apart. No one to talk to when i need someone. No one to share my secret when i want to let people know! No one to console me when i am sad. There's no one anymore! ):

I need someone, to guide me on how to go on my life. I don't want to let and relationships or people to affect my life or even my emotions! I want a new life, i need a new life!

2010-08-07T16:11:00.004+08:00

If you buy a new pair of shoes, in some cases you may have to wear them a few times before they feel comfortable. The same can be said for a romantic relationship. Many people believe in love at first sight, and they won't proceed unless the proverbial fireworks are present almost instantly. And although fireworks are nice, there is no rule that says they have to explode right away, or even exist.

2010-07-14T21:59:00.007+08:00

BROTHER! Happy 21st Birthday to YOU! May all your wishes come true, may you find your right one soon! May you pass all your exams with flying colours. LOVES <3

2010-07-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

Aries, Tuesday, 13 July 2010

For babies, the teething process can be quite painful.

As they cut new teeth, they invariably experience a lot of discomfort & quite a few sleepless nights.

But those new teeth open up a whole new world of foods to dine on.

This simplistic example is relevant to you today.

Some emotionally painful process you have experienced recently may have been quite challenging.

Ultimately, though, the pain you suffered has transformed you into someone who can take on a bigger challenge.

You may not realize this yet, but when you easily conquer an upcoming difficulty, you'll realize you've reached a whole new level.

2010-07-12T20:37:00.002+08:00

I don't know why i private-d my blog. Just don't feel like letting people read my post.

Going to complete 2 of 10 modules soon. Left a few lessons and 2 major examinations.

Nowadays, i feel rather moodswing. & it's kinda of serious! Maybe i shld consult doctor soon!

My mood changes damn fast, this sec, i can be very good& high with you, but...,

the next sec, i can be very quiet, emo, don't feel like talking, or even giving attitudes!

Dear friends, i seriously don't know how to control this situation. If possible, just scold me.

If i give you and attitudes, scold me! Tell me that i shldn't behave like this...! Just do it.

If no one tells me or scolds me, my matters will go worst. You guys shldnt have suffer from me.

This few days have been surfing facebook alot! Due to knowing a lot of new friends.

Actually they're friends of my brother. Most of them are younger than me, can't believe it!

Every morning, squeezing in to LRT & MRT really make me piss off! They're pushing me ><

I know my bag is big, but what can i do? Leave my bag at the station& i board the train?!

I know, there's nothing i can do to improve this matter. Everyone have to reach their destination

&& my face is getting worst uh! A lot of pimples suddenly pops up! Stress ahhh! ):

Okay, will post till here. If i have the time, will post more frequently with blog private! :P

2010-07-11T13:26:00.004+08:00

I didn't know i know a bustard for such a long time ><

He's really a big bustard! I really don't know what the fuck he's thinking!

Here's the conversation between him & me.

Him: 好吗？你好像变胖了哦！

Me: 对咯，胖一公斤了...连续两个星期去度假，烧烤，不胖才怪叻...

Him: 这样好！没带我去啊

Me: 哈哈！讲真的，我胖很多啊？

Him: 这样的胖我喜欢

Me: 不要玩，有胖很多吗？我要去减肥了！！

Him: 刚好给我当枕头睡觉

Me: 你...! 不要花言巧语！哈哈！讲真的啦，我有胖很多吗？

Him: 我什么？问我还不信我！奇怪

Me: 你只需要说有还是没有就好了，讲这么多废话干吗...?

Him: 我讲真心话？

Me: 那些对我来说不像是真心话，比较像花言巧语！

Him: 可能你比较不一样

Me: 有什么不一样？还不是人一个？

Him: 二星期胖一公斤的人

Me: 跟你讲话会气死！

Him: 这是幽默！

Me: 才怪！幽默不会让人气的！

Him: 我这种是让人气的！你还小不懂

Me: 每次都讲我还小，你只不过大我5岁嘛...不要一直把我当作小妹妹，不要以为我什么都不知道似的...

Him: 现在你还喜欢我吗？你知道什么

Me: 哈哈！你脸皮不薄嘛！感觉淡了...我的意思是，有些事只是你单方面觉得我还小不懂...不是我知道什么...

Him: 那我们从新再来

Me: 你有没有搞错？你不是要当爸爸的人了吗？你现在讲这样的话，要是她知道了她会怎么想？

Him: 没当了！我现在头很痛啊

Me: 什么意思？当爸爸这件事可以说有当还是没当的吗？

Him: 我现在人不舒服

The rest i don't wanna post out.

2010-07-06T18:32:00.002+08:00

Bro! This post is specially post only for you!

Okay, birthday party had over, but that doesn't mean that happy times are over too!

Stay as happy like how you're on that two days. I know it's difficult, but at least you try (:

Although i don't know what had happen which make you feel sad. You still won't open up & approach me.

But nevermind, you only need to know, no matters what, you're my bro.

Sometimes i need your listening ears, but sometimes i can also lend you mine too!

I know, to be happy everyday isn't a easy task. I doubt no one can do it.

Every little things we do everyday, some can let us happy for the whole day. But some can also let us feel angry/sad the next moment or even for the whole day.

You had a bunch of great friends, buddies and families. Be happy!

In this chalet, i can see that your friends, buddies and families cares for you damn loads!

No matter is happy or sad, you will still need to go thru the day.

Must well stays happy okok? <3 Loves you! :D

2010-07-01T23:07:00.003+08:00

我说过，我要把你忘了，过去的几天，我真的没有再想你！

但是，在我没事做的时候，没人跟我讲话的时候，发呆的时候....

我脑里出现的都是以前的我们。我真的好想好想回去过去。

如果我知道会变成这样，当初我一定会好好珍惜还看得到你的时候！

为什么每次在爱情里后悔的那个人都一定是我？为什么每次我都不懂得珍惜？

我真的很想很想放弃，但是我心里有的感觉是...

我好不舍的，也好不甘心！明明就是喜欢彼此...

为什么你要开多一间店？为什么你把时间给了它，也不把时间给我？

感动你为我做的，却更讨厌你这么做！

因为这样，我会陷得更深！我会期望你为我做得更多，更关心我。

但是，事实并不是这样，我想也永远不会这样。

时间久了，感情和感觉都淡了，爱情没了，友情也慢慢的跟着结束了。

我们就会慢慢的变成当初的陌生人，完全不认识的人...

每天我都在希望，在我上学和放学的路程中，会让我偶然的遇见你...

但是，得到的是，一天一天的失望。

我已经很久没有接到你的电话了，你好吗？

我真的不知道，每次看到你，跟你讲话，跟你在一起，我到底在撑什么！

好多话想跟你说，但是，看见你或听见你的声音，我什么都说不出来。

好想告诉你，我喜欢你，不然我不甘心放弃你，但是却好害怕。

好害怕得到的是，重覆的伤害！

每天都在心里希望今天的你是快乐的，幸福的，健康的，平安的！

2010-06-17T19:29:00.002+08:00

Back to blog w/o any pictures. Have been really busy lately?! I'm just lazy to type out words, words and still words. Alright, attend 1 whole week of lessons this week. Alright, not bad, except for the Quantitatives skills, which also known as MATHS! Understandable but needs more practices in order to remember the formulas. As what siewpeng said, we need to refer to the examples that Ms.Cindy gaves when doing Qns we're assign to do. Known quite a few friends, but only close to my group members. Others, some know their names, some, can't really remember. But, somehow, not that friendly? Hmmm, shldnt put it as unfriendly, not that....(can't find words to describe). It's okay, just hope that i'll have the chance to talk to everyone in the class before the diploma ends. hahaha! Ohya, my class have a total number of 50 students. It's a huge number yea? But, seriously, when you see it, it wasn't as big as you thought to be.

Had my first english quiz 2 weeks ago. I didn't really studied all, luckily, still manage to pass. Can't afford to fail. Once fail, part of my parents $ gone to drain. Gonna have the 2nd english quiz tmr. SO, guys wish me luck okok? Tmr after school, gonna rush over to _____ to buy movie tickets. Just in case no seats left. I'm wondering what shld i do while waiting for *her to release from school....? Okay, will end here, need to continue my school work :D

2010-06-01T20:47:00.002+08:00

Alright, back to blogger to post. I've started school, therefore will be busier than usual? Went out to cousin's outing on 28may! It was indeed real fun. Long since i had so much fun with them. But somehow, i seriously turn damn fcuking emo when the sky is turning dark. I know, i shouldn't turn emo as this will somehow affect the atmosphere. But, i can't control. Seeing you guys bringing your guys there, seriously, i'm really happy to see your so sweet and happy together. But on the other hand, i'm hurt? I dare not say out. I felt i'm like a log, i don't know how to respond when couples are playing, hugging... I don't know what can i do?! I sms-ed him during K, but... no respond again. My heart sinks was like sink from 20th storeys to basement. The feeling sucks. But i know, i can't express it out. &also i'm not feeling well that day, i swallowed 2 panadols that day, but to no effort? It still hurts! Till now then i found out, we actually didn't managed to take a group photo together. Either one or two were missing from picture.

Went out on my first day of school with xw. At 12pm, i rushed to The Cathay. Met her. Had lunch. Start shopping. First went to 313@Somerset, then walked to FEP. I think i spent a lot on that day. Bused back to LOT1. Then cabbed back to BPP. Then, walked home. I had a lot of fun with her seriously. I simply love to go out with her. Hopes she really don't mind. She knew what i mean. I doubt i can find another person exactly give me the same feeling that she give me in PSB Acad. Secondary friends simply can't be replaced by anyone! I miss the times yet there's nothing i can catch back the times that i've missed..

2010-05-12T20:18:00.002+08:00

I miss the times w/ you guys! But due to misunderstanding, i don't know when will have the chance to be as happy again...

我终于就快开学了！不知道是应该开心呢，还是担心？！今天去学校参加orientation，给我的感觉是，这个课程没有那么容易读叻！既然选了，那，就认命吧！有很多事情，真的是怎么想都想不通的，所以，我的最后决定是，放了，忘了，不再想为什么了！但，请给我一点时间慢慢的让我对他还有一点的思念忘得一干二净！And i will move on with my life! :D

2010-05-02T20:04:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is a monday again! Weeks passes just like that. Friends are going to schools, but i think i'm the only one still working. Many people ask-ed me, am i still schooling? Haven't start school? Where're you studying? All these questions really make me piss-ed off! Some more, they aren't my relatives nor friends! They're just customers! I can't differentiate whether they are caring for me or they're gossiping? Or, maybe i think too much?!

I seriously miss my friends and secondary school times so much! I regretted that i didn't treasure it. Kept on emo-ing at school, during lessons! I regretted that i didn't do homeworks, didn't study for tests/exams/MYE! hahaha! So what if i'm regretted now?

PSB email-ed me that i'm in the course, and will only start on 31May! Ohmy, i still need to wait that ~~fcuking~~ long. Alright, i will endure. Those who're stress over poly's life, endure too!
Take care guys! Will update often? See my mood la?! :P

2010-04-30T22:03:00.003+08:00

Yeah! Finally done with my new blogskin. Hahahaha! How? Is it nice? Give some comments yeah! My tagboard has been quiet for a very long time. Make it noisy? Didn't went to work for pass 2 days. Due to.... Heard from many of my friends that poly life are very stress and worst than sec school life?! You guys will get used to it de okay? Must endure!

I haven't start school, so, somehow still quite relax now, but i know if i start school, my life will be more miserable than you guys! I need to complete a diploma course in 16 months? I really doubt whether i can do it anot, or, can i endure till the day i get my diploma w/ good result!? hahaha! I'm really grateful to my sec school friends, they didn't forget me even though they start their poly life and get to know new friends! (*you guys know who you are!)

Take care guys yeah!
I think i'll take a long time to update again! hahahaha! :P

2010-04-06T09:44:00.003+08:00

好久都没有用华语来写部落格了。

最近发生的事情实在是太多太多了，我不知道要从何说起。诗惠说得对，好像进展得太快了。。老天还是跟以前一样，还是在作弄我！我喜欢的人一点反应都没有，我不喜欢的人却一直向我暗示。。

我只把他当朋友，但是他却。。对不起，我不是真的讨厌你，只是我对你并没有那种爱情的感觉，我也不知道我妈会向你讲那些话！我们还是朋友对吗？你会找到对的人！

我拼命的想要多了解你，但你却好像一点反应都没有！我知道你很忙很忙，但一个23岁的人能有多忙呢？连回复我一个信息都没有空吗？每次当我放弃等你会回复时，总是有一些我意想不到的事发生！你打给我吗？我却因为在看电视而错过了你那通唯一的电话，那天过后，我都不敢把我的电话放在离我看不见的地方，但是，你始终没有再打来。我失望了，绝望了，再也不敢有任何希望了。你给我的感觉，你的动作让我觉得你是喜欢我的，但是你一直都没有做任何的行动...我告诉自己，既然你不想，很忙，没有空回复我的信息，那我应该不要再传信息给你了。好没意思叻！

2010-03-05T17:45:00.003+08:00

Hey yeah guys!

I've take 1 day leave today!

&& i've also post up all the pictures i want to post ^^

Okay, the photos are not in order but is in different occasions.

I slack at home for the whole day today, the time flies.

But when i was working, the time pass really damn slow~~~

So fast, i've graduated from WSSS, my results ain't good, therefore...,

till now, i still don't know which school will i be going T.T

Alright, i'll just wait.

At the mean time, when's the class outing that ivan organised?

I'm looking forward to it~

& of course, xw, you ain't going to run away, our outing! ^^v

I've manage-d to watch a few movies, all thanks to my dearest bro!

- Sherlock Holmes

- Love Happens

- 72 家租客

and a lot more! ~~

Still got a lot haven't watch yet such as 花田喜事2010 & 孔子...

I going to watch 花田喜事2010 now, will post till here!

Enjoy the photos! ^^v

Grandmother's 70th Birthday' 2010

2010-03-05T17:37:00.004+08:00

Cousins Outing to Safra & Sakae

2010-03-05T17:28:00.004+08:00

Chinese New Year' 2010

2010-03-05T17:11:00.004+08:00

2010-02-28T22:08:00.003+08:00

Long time no see, readers! :P

Change-d blogskin, hope you guys like it! :DD

Anyway,

Happy 18th Birthday to

Geraldine Toh!

2010-01-29T23:13:00.005+08:00

Friends! Guys!
Don't bother to find me. I'm sorry, but let me gone for a while.

那天，你主动跟我说再见...

昨天，我主动跟你说再见...

今天，我们，没人说再见...

怎么了吗？你让我又爱又恨...!

2010-01-08T16:49:00.015+08:00

{Overdue Pictures}
2009' Christmas Day cum ShiHui's Birthday Celebration!
Venue: Vivo! :D

2009-12-27T19:11:00.058+08:00

Let the pictures acc you thru my blog!
Hahaa, all these photos're from the M'sia trip! :DDD
All thanks to Madeleine, Angeline & Shi Hui ^^v
*Stay tune @ my blog for Christmas Celebration

cum ShiHui's birthday photos! :D

2009-12-21T23:47:00.003+08:00

Back-ed from 3 days 2 nights trip to Malacca and Genting.
It's my first time to Malacca, a lot of shopping can be carry out there.
But due to rain, we had decided not to go to there place which call 文化节...
Therefore, the tour guide cancelled the trip& we went back to hotel.

Throughout this 3 days, the tour guide (xiao qiang) told us a lot about M'sia.
(Although i didn't listen v.specifically on what he said).
Took a lot of photos, will find some time to blog out? Or upload in facebook.

I think i had gain 2-3kgs. There're so many delicious food everyday in M'sia.
In Malacca, the temp is quite good, not v.cold nor hot.
However, in Genting, it's so damn cold, as what my cousin told me, 17degree only?!
Overall it's quite fun.

Thanks family, thanks cousins, thanks relatives, thanks tour guide, &&thanks bus driver!

&&&Stay tuned for photos! :D

2009-12-06T23:01:00.002+08:00

Went to Jurong West to pray around 1pm.
To Jurong West Sports Stadium to eat Japanese food.
To hometown.
BPP next. Find xw too :D
Home sweet home!~

2009-12-05T22:48:00.003+08:00

Went to work for the whole day!
Rain the whole day, therefore almost slack for the whole day.
Suddenly, saw him walk past, am thinking "did he saw me?!"
No mood to work aftermath!
I thought i've already forget him?!
很想谈场恋爱! :P
I feel so confused!

2009-12-02T21:18:00.003+08:00

Hello!~

I'm back from my shopping journey with x.w! I hope she had some fun too!

Went to cwp for pizza as lunch, then shop awhile, bought some item, saw elmo etc!

Headed to Bishan Junction 8 next. Bought quite a number of items, & played arcade too!

I was trying to catch a medium elmo home but no matter how many i try, i did not succeed!

However, x.w that lucky fellow! She played once, &&&& she got it! OMG!

I couldn't believe it at first! Hahaa! She couldn't believe herself too!

She gave it to me as she said it's my money, ily my dear! :DD [我们的小亮]

Hahaa! Went to AMK hub next, shop awhile then train back to BPP.

Bought a couple of items, then home sweet home.

Overall, i spent quite a lot of money today! ><>

2009-12-02T09:53:00.002+08:00

Heading out with x.w later to a lot of places?! hahaa!
Again, shop shop around. It's being a long time since i saw her, even though we live in the same block. hahaa!
Going to pizza hut to have lunch too! Omg, i miss pizza~~

Somehow, i think single is still the best. There's no one in my heart is the best!
I felt so relieve and comfortable without thinking about him for the whole day!
Maybe, the one i love most is you! :D

Miss you a lot, bro!

2009-11-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

Finally it's the end of Olevel, however, i'm not really excited~

Thursday!
It's was the day that i started my holiday and shopping journey.
Went to quite a lot of places with xw. First, went to The Cathay for lunch.
Then, train-ed to bugis. It was raining. Shop awhile, bought some things,
then head-ed to Far East, somehow there's nothing much for me to buy?!
Next, bus-ed to LOT1, bought a couple of things, then to BPP.
After which, daddy came to fetch us home after his work. Spent a lot of $$$ and bought a lot of things. It's really a fun day with xw. However, i hate to take transport, it makes me wanna puke.

Friday!
Went out earlier than thursday. Train-ed to JP w/ xw, hl and jessica.
Waiting for the cinema to open, Q-up, then watch 2012. Not bad?!
After movie, walk around JP, waiting for ml to arrive.
Then, train-ed to the KBOX in clementi. Sang alot until throat almost sore!
Around 7pm, leave KBOX, bus-ed home.
Reach-ed home, actually wanna dye my hair, but...it's too late.
Mummy says dye next day.. but, till today not yet dye -.-

Saturday!
Other than work, still work and work and work.

Sunday!
I don't know what the hell should i do. -.-
Work again?! I wanna shopping. But, no $$

2009-11-12T22:05:00.001+08:00

End of Olevel.

Don't feel like blogging tonight. Will blog tmr's night instead.

2009-10-24T18:36:00.003+08:00

Monday it'll be First Olevel written paper! :DDD
So worry& scare yet very happy! lol, cause this means, my long holidays coming too!
There're so many things i wanna do after O.

What i wanna do after O! :D
1. Re-dye my hair? (Maybe!)
2. Buy MP3& camera. (Save money! Money come! :P)
3. Go out with friends, that includes YOU! ^^
4. Looking forward to the family trip.
5. Find a job?

Wishlist! :D
1. No more quarrels regarding families or friends!
2. YOU can be how you're in the past. Dotes me like how you did in the past.
3. Everyone's happyy! (:
(I don't ask for more, i only hope this 3 will come true as fast as possible. No matter what, I will achieve all this three!)

-Daddy, mummy, although you won't see this nor understand what i wrote here. But i still wanna post it out. Last few days, in fact last week till now, i know, i had a v.bad temper towards you. &I also know that i had promised you a lot of times that i'll change. But, in the end, you're disappointed. Sorry, no matter how many sorry i said, you won't forgive me, because i know, you never blamed me before for throwing my temper at you. I know, i had not being doing house chores, I will after i finish my O, okok? Iloveyou.

-Brother, I don't know whether will you read this, but i wanna tell you that, no matter what, no matter what you had said to me before, no matter what smses you had sent to me before and no matter what you had did to me, you're still me brother. All i hope for is, you can be who you're, and also what you're in the past. This wish doesn't only apply on me, but also daddy& mummy. I know, you still care for this house, this family. Rmb, you're always my bro! :D

-Friends, i know my attitude and temper changes very fast. Many of the times, i used to get emo and irritates you guys. I know, i really know. I'm sorry, i know i had said a lot of sorry to you guys alr, but still, sorry. Other than sorry, there's also thanks! 5yrs of friends, going to come to an end. It's fast yeah! We had gone thru so much. Laughters, sadness, misunderstanding, and many many! No matter what, you guys are the best friends that i have known from the age of 13 to the age of 17 now! Rmb, even if we had to be apart after O, we can still contact using phone. A good scientist had invent phone, handphones, emails, etc for people to keep contact right. Do contact okay! Last but not least, 5B,2009 rocks! Chairpersons, v.chairperson, the guys in 5B, you gave us a lot of laughter! Thanks! (:

&&don't forget my wishes to you guys!
All students who're taking Olevel this coming monday, all the best!
GoodLuck! :DDD

2009-10-15T17:40:00.004+08:00

Happy 17th birthday to

Ong Jun Wei! :DDD

Sometimes, i'm really wondering what the fuck you're thinking about. You can be very good to me, & also very bad to me the next minute. For your info, i'm a human too, it's not that i've got no feeling, treat me like a human please! If you're continuing to treat me like this, all you means, &i will treat you how you treat me as. Don't worry, your days will come one day! Bitchy asshole!

FYI: This post is relate-d to the previous post, to prevent any misunderstanding or whatsoever. I must really post this out. I'm really very angry about what that bitch send me. So many words, so many sms!!!! ><

2009-10-13T17:37:00.003+08:00

第一次听到你的名字时，我就断定你是一个很好，很温柔的女生。但是我万万没有想到，原来你跟“泼妇”没有两样！我很气，真的很气很气！第一，我从来都没有把你当作朋友，所以你根本没有必要看在我们“算是”朋友的份上而每对我怎样！况且，你能对我怎样？你不想失去永久居名的话，你就来吧！我没有非要拿把刀去割破这份友情，我说过了，我从来没把你当朋友，而且，我不需要这份友情！我也没有兴趣你曾不曾经把我当作妹妹看待！我经历过的事，都是你和他给的，不然，我现在还是开开心心的，是他！他干吗那么风流？还有你，你之后又干嘛出现在我生命里？还有你说话前后矛盾，你说我们不是在过偶像剧的情景，那你最后为什么又会说这一个句子呢？“还会演变成现在酱吗？” 我从来没有奢想他会跟我在一起，我是不了解他，你有够了解，才会跟他上床嘛！还有，我从来都没有认为自己还小，更何况，我知道一个人不管年龄有多小，自己做过的事情，自己一定要承担！哈哈！还有，如果我没有资格跟本事能打扰到你们一家庭或你和他的关系，那你就不会传那么多字的信息给我，以后放聪明一点，省省你的信息吧，可能还能省下一张储诸卡的钱呢！你们现在不是很缺钱用吗？拜托，他这种人，永远是“狗改变不了吃屎”的！可能他为了宝宝才当一个好爸爸的，一定不是为了你！我很肯定是因为，他曾经告诉过我，他回去根本就很闷！面对你和宝宝，都是闷的！如果我要拆散你们，让你们误会的话，那我在那时候就能劝他别回去之类话，但是我没有！我还告诉他，他已经是一个孩子的爸爸了，做什么事之前都应该想到你和宝宝，能看着宝宝一天一天地长大，是世界上一个当爸爸最幸福的事，能和自己最心爱的人结婚，生孩子，组织一个小家庭也是一个男人最幸福的事！我不是没有机会尝到你现在所拥有的幸福，而是我不像你那么笨！你那么年轻，就被人搞大肚子，然后再也没有机会享受单身的快乐，被人追的幸福了！说真的，如果要我嫁给一个像他的男人，我想我打死都不会愿意！万一有一天他面对你，面对到腻了，到外面胡搞，你也不能怎么样啊！离婚，那宝宝怎么办？应该好好想的人是你，我还在念书，你只不过大我一两岁罢了吧，却已经是当妈妈的人了！我并不是歧视年轻妈妈，我倒觉得年轻妈妈很勇敢，倒是你，你明知道他是一个怎样的人，但是你还是一头栽下去了！虽然你昨晚那样地骂我，地侮辱我，我也不可能再和你们任何一个人联络。当你的朋友是我在这世上最辛苦的一件事。但是，我还是要祝福你和他，能永远拥有美满的婚姻！

2009-09-30T20:37:00.001+08:00

I wanna dig out my heart and plant it in the soil.

(To prevent my feeling grow back)

2009-09-26T23:16:00.005+08:00

Hey readers!
I'm wondering,
is a samsung camera better or a nikon camera better?
Tell me, tell me!
I want to buy a new camera, but still not confirm yet :D

(The one on the right cost around $350, right around $250!)
Oh my! Difference of $100!!!! ><

2009-09-25T16:39:00.003+08:00

{不知道是不是真的放下了...}

I really fail almost all my prelim subs. =/ Shock?!
But at least, i manage to pass my English& MotherTongue!
Hope O'level faster come, faster end :D

2009-09-23T20:05:00.006+08:00

{Sometimes, how i wish i had a sister, but instead, god gave me a brother.}

Olevel is just less than a month away from me. That's fast, real fast!
I just found out that Olevel come fast, end fast too! :DDD
I think i failed all my prelims! Except for MotherTongue (:
Anyway, really think of dropping comb.humanities,
but don't know whether parents allowed?!
Really hope that Olevel end as quickly as possible!
I want go shopping, go out play, watch movie, play arcade, k-box,
and many more! :P
I need go do homeworks alr, end here!

Jiayou everyone who's taking Olevel this year! ^^

2009-09-10T22:56:00.003+08:00

我已经确定你在msn里blocked我了!我不明白为什么, 因为我不曾打扰你!不管你是blocked我还是deleted我, 我都会觉得开心!因为至少你曾经注意过我. (我是这么跟自己讲的,虽然知道这是假的).从一月开始我就注意你, 我以为只是一阵子的喜欢, 毕竟你比我小! 我确定你不是我要的, 但是有一天你没去学校, 我才发现... 我后悔了, 后悔自己当初承认自己喜欢你! 我知道你还是喜欢她的, 虽然你说没有, 但是我感觉得出! 她一定会比我更适合你, 她人长的漂亮, 读书厉害, 最重要的是, 她和你一样年龄! 其实, 我也很明白, 你不适合我, 就连我妈也这么说...我不知道为什么我有办法喜欢你那么久, 其实我很介意你比我小的事实! 我不知道是我的思想太成熟还是怎样, 我常常把你看成一个小弟弟! 一个我想爱, 我想保护的小弟弟...?! 对你我已绝望, 今天我就要把这一切画上句号!

你听好了!! 我不喜欢你! 再也不会喜欢你! 就当作我们不知道彼此的存在吧...!!

You guys can choose not to read! :DDD

2009-09-07T21:11:00.002+08:00

Hellooo!!

Alot of 1st time for me to experience today!

Seriously, long time since i touch/play that game.

Really had loads of fun today! Thanks friends! (:

You guys gave me a wonderful day! :D

A short post will do, end here!

Byee, takecare!

2009-09-06T08:25:00.000+08:00

I think

my feeling had fade slowly

through examinations!

Thank God!

2009-08-30T11:13:00.005+08:00

回家的路上我哭了

眼泪再一次崩溃了

无能为力这样走著

再也不敢骄傲奢求了

我还能够说些什麽

我还能够做些什麽

我好希望你会听见

因为爱你我让你走了

(我让你走了-潘玮柏）

2009-08-30T10:39:00.002+08:00

Took back our MotherTongue Results. I get an A2.
Although parents said quite good, but, i still insist on re-taking. I seriously need an A1!
Had English Olevel Oral, I think i mess the whole thing up :P
I greet the teachers Good Morning, instead of Good Afternoon!
What a stupid mistake! Some more, before i sat down on the chair, my knees hit the table! ><
Plus, the teachers looked very tired! When i say there's nothing i wanna add on, their eyes become so big! &looked happy!
Therefore, people who're at the last few are at disadvantages! The teachers're tired.
Also had my MotherTongue Prelim. Everytime the compo that came up is the topic which my family had discussed before.
However, we did not discuss the points that I need. Hahaa!
The first part of Paper2 is damn difficult, hope at least get a pass for that :P
Tmr only go school for 2 lessons &then watch performances for teacher's day celebration.
That's what friends told me, I not sure either.
&Tue will be the actual day, Teacher's day! (:

Ohya, the day before yesterday was my ahgong's birthday! ^^
Happy Belated Birthday!
Although sometimes you're very stubborn& get angry over small matters,
but i know, you still loves us, only that you don't know how to express out!
We love you too! Happy 70th Birthday! (:

2009-08-24T21:40:00.002+08:00

我想我失败了...

2009-08-24T00:05:00.004+08:00

I had being trying very very hard to forget. But why? =/
The more i want to forget, the more i'll think of. ><

Relationship < Examinations!

2009-08-04T20:44:00.005+08:00

(There's still a long path for me to walk thru ~~alone~~)

Wooohoooo! Finally blogger is back into normal! :DDD
Break down this few days, always feel like crying in the night.
Don't know what happen. Didn't manage to figure it out.
Went to sleep immediately once i have that kind of feeling. hahaaa!
Hmmm, chatt-ed with two girls for long long hours this few days. Hahaa!
If you're close to me, you'll know who.
They told me a lot of things. Which makes me think more than i'll in the past.
But, it's good yea! (:

Don't block me in msn, please.

2009-07-31T18:37:00.001+08:00

Yesterday had my English Prelim Oral.
Somehow, i felt much more comfortable talking to that cher.
Hahaa! Hope that i can get high marks? ><
Took back our coursework B for editing, need to hand in by tmr?!
I'm wondering whether i can finish by tonight? [Only if i didn't blog, hahaa!]
Went to BPP with XW, ML& SQ. Return-ed books, then head-ed to MAC.
Ate lunch& went to develop photos that we need for coursework B with XW.
Seriously, I hate today, especially during physics lesson! D:
That teacher was like trying to fool me. Shit him.
I answer-ed the question you gave, yet you ask me correct anot.
If correct, then say laaa, don't keep asking me. Make me feel unsure about the answer.
~~Almost cri-ed out today after i sit down.~~ :0
Forget it! Tmr will be a better day, right?! (Like real)

2009-07-27T20:19:00.001+08:00

I don't know what happen to blogger, the template seems not to be right, don't feel like blogging about what i actually wanted to blog. Forget it, won't post until it's okay. Anyway, does you guys blogger also like that?

2009-07-22T21:00:00.003+08:00

Ohhh godddd!! How???!!!!
I've grown fatter and fatter. A lot people say this to me! ><
I had decided! I don't eat fast food nor drink bubble tea this for 1 month.
Do exercise everyday, do sit ups everyday.
See whether can chase the fats away not. hahaaa! :P

CL listening today! Hmmm, average?
But some questions're tricky, don't know which is the correct answer!?
Having POA class test this coming friday. ):

2009-07-19T15:23:00.004+08:00

~~I didn't know why my blog became like this ?? -.-~~

Have done a quiz from facebook!
Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-07-14T21:35:00.003+08:00

Had chinese oral today.
&i think it's average, somehow i'm so nervous that i almost bite my tongue when i read.
2 teachers, one male& one female! &i think they're from china.
Hopefully this time round can get distinction too!! ><

The way you look at me, make me move again.

2009-07-13T15:13:00.005+08:00

Oh fuck!
So many things happened over the weekend. I seriously hate weekend.
Nothing will happened if there's no weekend.
If he wasn't back, nothing will happened either. I really hate him.
But somehow, after reading the sms he send me after he left.
I felt sad, I didn't know i'm actually such a failure in this family.
I never thought that i'm such a person in his heart.
I don't know what cause him to change until like that, where's the one i used to know?
Yesterday, i cried and cried silently. Without letting my parents know nor he know.
I know, no matter how hard i cry, this will only bring "irritated" to them.
They'll think that i'm such a nuisance. Grown up so big, only know how to cry -.-
Maybe he's right, I'm fail to be a daughter. Totally a failure.
I never do house chores, always give attitude to parents...etc.
But do you know? How much i have change? After attending "superteens", i think that kinships are more important than studies.
I don't wanna make anyone of them angry anymore.
But, whatever i do, to you are all shits! You blamed me for acting "guai", blamed me for acting innocent. Is that what a bro should say to a sis?
I don't know how to face you when you're back. Rather, i don't want you to be back.
But i know, with this mindset, i'm selfish. Maybe i should stay out late, go home late.
So that, i no need to face you.
I will lock myself in my own room, prevent myself for seeing you.
In that case, i think will be better for the both of us.
There's no more relationship between both of us alr barhs..?
Somehow, i don't know how to treat you the way i treat you in the past.
Just to let you know, there's a lot of things that i have done, that you don't know!
Please! Please check out before saying me for acting "guai", acting innocent!
At least, i make the effort to act, not like you,

you don't even try to make them happy!
You does not have the "rank" to say me! You suck!!!!
Somehow, not only *she wanna jump down the building, i hate living in this family.
Even if small prob, you guys can also quarrel until like that.
When you guys quarrel, what can I do? Nothing! See, nothing again!
With all the problems i had, there's nothing i can do to stop/solve the problems.
I scare, there's too much thing for me to scare of!
I scare *you'll leave me, i really scare.
I tell myself, if you leave me, let me leave with you.
There's no point staying in this world without you! (I know nothing will happen to you!)
I scare i might make you guys disappointed with my O'level results. I scare i can't get the results that i promised to give you!
I told you on sat, about the guy i like in school for quite a long time. I don't wanna regret for not sharing my relationships with you.
You're the person who is most kin to me!
I scare, i scare if i shown my true feeling in school, friends will start to dislike me.
I scare, i may not be able to play with them like how we were in the past. I scare you guys thought i gives attitude, i scare you guys don't wanna talk to me anymore.

2009-07-04T21:26:00.007+08:00

Yesterday, 3rd of July

Need not go to school. But, need to stay at home,
facing the screen of the computer and do homeworks given from internet.
No school = Many homeworks.
Many of us rather, School = No homeworks. hahaa!
Haven't finish every single homeworks, still left some undone.
At night, went to the pasar malam near my house. (Quite far laaa -.-)
Went there with xuewen & minglin. Play-ed the games there.
We like siao ones lo :P Looking for our childhood. hahaa!! :D
Around 9pm plus like that then reach home. Bro back-ed too! :D

Today, 4th of July

Time flies, so fast, today is the opening of the new indoor sports hall.
Went to the spring carnival in the early morning. Alot people reach-ed alr.
The whole school can be said almost fully pack-ed.
Didn't like the atmosphere, but still stay-ed in school for so long.
Just because of me, i break the stupid promise i make to myself ><
Headed to BPP after leaving the school, had KFC for lunch.
Then arcade in BPP, had alot of fun! :DDD
Walk-ed to the basketball court which is near my house to watch them play-ed basketball.
Went home to get change-d, &play-ed badminton with xw. Had fun too! Thanks!
Sprain-ed my leg, injured my toe while playing badminton ><
Luckily, monday no school :DDD Need to be home alone again ):

I know, i know i still can't forget you. If not i won't ask so many people for help today. I don't know why, at first i thought, i can let you go so smoothly, but, i never know, it's so difficult. I don't know why am i so stubborn, i told myself, you aren't that good, i don't know you well, I'm not your type. But, no matter what i told myself, i still can't control myself. You made me do so much silly things. Went back again just because of you. Looking for you almost for the whole day. Saw you, excited until want go bang head. Why am i like that? I don't want to be like that. I don't want to like you anymore, you're cold to me. Why? I hate all the people which kept saying about me infront of you. Makes you damn pissed off, and makes you even dislike me.

HUIEN, buck up! Stop all your silly actions. Stop thinking of scenes which will never ever appear in your life. Get back to real life please! Your future now is O'level and not him. Forget about him, and get back to what you're in the past. Just treat that you never know him before, treat that there's no such person call _______ in this school, in this country, in this world. Believe yourself that once you forget him, you'll get back to the old HUIEN which was cheerful, happy everyday! Throw away the mindset that contains him! Throw away all...! :'(

But I can't bear to! Shit me!!

2009-06-24T18:18:00.005+08:00

Change-d blog song :DDDD

Alright, had been busy last few days :D
Went to school just now to hand in my ~~late~~ coursework :P [hahaa]
Then headed to LOT1 to buy pens as school's going to reopen soon.
My holidays are going to over just like that -.-
Nevermind, at least got holiday, hahaa. But, once school reopen, gonna've test.
Yea, social studies mock exam, i've not even touch the books yet, you? (:
Go out with xw is always so crazy! Today i think it's the craziest day i'm with her.
Rain almost the whole day today. T.T
Bought a couple of items today, && i actually bought a box of vitasoy home :/
A box = 24 small packets. OMG, why so little ah? I shld buy more. -.-
Nevermind, will buy next week.
Anyway, i've cut my fringe, but, i think it's going to grow longer soon.
So, maybe will cut again before school reopen. Hahaa~
(Minglin ah, don't say i never post le hor, this time, no chemistry. hahaa!)

2009-06-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

Went to Chem. Practical in the early morning. "Play" using those chemicals.
Ends at 10am as others still have to attend Geography.

Went home, bathe, & went out with xw.
To around Plaza.Sing there to eat lunch. Sushi! ^^ Damn nice.
Headed off to Bugis to shop our GSS! I bought damn loads things.
Spent damn loads $$. hahaa.
Aftermath, to Far East. Bought somethings tooooo!
I just simply love to go out with xw laaaaaaaa! I wanna go out with you again.

I promise myself,

I'll confess one day, it's only sooner or later :D

I won't let myself regret, even if you'll reject! (I think so!)

2009-06-12T18:47:00.007+08:00

Macs Goh!

What am i going to do? I miss you like hell yet you don't know at all.
You flying off? To where?
I feel like telling you, I LIKE YOU. But.. I don't have the courage -.-
2 weeks, I unable to see you for 2 weeks.
That's really very long. Can i tell you i like you? Can i?
Tell me, can I? Who can tell me? Who can give me the courage?

~~fcuk love~~

你三年前伤我得还不够吗?

2009-06-10T20:30:00.003+08:00

[I don't want to be alone!]

Stay in IT lab for so damn long today -.-

Had Math remedial in the early morning, I was late with xuewen.

Glad to hear from her that she and ___ is alright. haha! Must remain de same ah!

Tmr need to stay in the IT lab for long hours again. Can i don't go tmr?

I didn't get to see him for 2 days. I doubt i can see him tmr either.

&&I can't finish my coursework laa! So many left undone =.=

2009-06-09T21:00:00.007+08:00

[Can swing, swing away all my troubles?]

我也很想站在你身前，大胆的告诉你“我喜欢你”...

可是，我能吗？我可以吗？我行吗？

你给我的感觉总是忽冷忽热的，根本就猜不到你到底在想什么..

告诉我，你要我怎么做？我累了，我做人做得好累!

Shld i just giveup like that?

2009-06-08T18:15:00.000+08:00

I told myself, can't think of you from today onwards.
But...

2009-05-29T18:26:00.000+08:00

Sorry.
That's all i can say.
(Why am i so useless?)

2009-05-27T18:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to
MADELEINE ANG
(the middle one)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to
ANGELINE ANG
(the left one)

&&guys, ignored the right one. lol :X

2009-05-25T21:36:00.002+08:00

This post will be dedicated to him.
(*You guys can ignored& skip this post!)

Okay, I don't know what's wrong with me, I keep thinking of you.
& I keep wanting to see you, but seems like you're avoiding me. -.-
Alright, nevermind. I don't know when I'll have the courage to talk to you again.
& I don't know when I can see you again? probably tmr?
What should i do? What can i do?
I really scare that you'll detest me. Hate me, dislike me.
I already prepared. Prepared to get hurt at any moment of time. :X
All depends on you. It's being months, in the middle, i tried to giveup.
But, your eyes. At the time, the more i don't want see you,
the more you appear infront of me.
The more i want to see you, yet, the more i can't.
I feel like i had being fool. Am i?
I didn't want to tell you, because i don't want to disrupt your studies.
I don't want you to avoid me. I don't want you to detest me!
Please don't!

2009-05-22T18:35:00.005+08:00

试问，我们这班是否得罪过你？

我真的不明白，你有必要用“狗”来形容我们吗？

难道你是人生出来的，我们就不是？

如果你没有别的意思，那你干吗要在慧儿问你什么意思后拿掉那句话？

心虚吗？你的表面功夫做的还真好，一点破绽都没有！

如果我们真的是“狗”，那你连___都不如...

对不起，是你逼我们的...

如果你那么痛恨新加坡人的话，又何必去申请PR呢？

阻扰地球转动！还有很多需要PR的人在等批准呢！

我一开始对你的影响已经不是很好了，现在你还这样说我们，

我想，以后我们都不会把你当朋友了！

2009-05-18T21:03:00.001+08:00

F&N coursework today in school.
I thought it'll be a long day, who knows. haha. :P

Nothing to blog about -.-

carry on~

2009-05-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

Finally Over!

MYE finally over! But, O'lvl coming.
1June. Mother Tongue O'lvl Paper1&2.

Went out today! With Xuewen. Celebrate her birthday.
I'm sorry that i can't go to your celebration tmr.
Happy Birthday to you! :D

Got alot to post, but very lazy to type out.

Wait for you :D

2009-05-06T21:25:00.001+08:00

你说我不是坏人，但...我却喜欢上坏人...

2009-05-02T18:21:00.002+08:00

What more can i do? What can i do to prevent them leaving?
What can i do to stop the time? Who can tell me?
I'm scare, I'm really scare.
Whenever i think my parents will leave me one day, i feel scare.
I don't want them to leave. I don't want!
I don't know what esle I can do to help them. I don't want them to be so tough.
I don't want them to work everyday.
I don't want to grow up, I don't want them to grow old.
I don't want whatever shit human life-cycle.
Since god let us be parents and child, why? why must them be so cruel to take them away?
There's so much love, why so cruel to separate us?
I love mummy and daddy! I really do!
All I can do is cry, all i know is cry, why am i so useless? WHY?!!!

2009-04-30T21:12:00.003+08:00

Had 3 papers today. [Math P1, SS and MT P3]
I don't know what to blog about. Have some unhappiness with friends.
I don't know how to solve it, I don't know how to initiate.
What am i gonna do? What can i do?

I'm wondering whether i should still contact with you not.
I didn't know, you will say so much to me. I didn't know i'll too.
You told me your problems, I envy you, but you envy me.
God is fooling us. I really hope, you'll be happy when you're back.
Treasure every moment with them, especially the small one.
They need you, & i believe, you need them too! Don't vex-ed about matters that're unecessary.
I know you can make it.
Be happy, my ~~dear~~ :D

After so many things, I learnt to smile ^^
I know the person i love, it's still ~~you~~

2009-04-28T18:31:00.000+08:00

我能躲你到多久？

2009-04-19T12:01:00.002+08:00

It's fast, 3 days of Superteen workshop is officially over.
Somehow, i can't bear.
On friday, what Dr Ernest Wong said, makes a lot of us cried like hell.
He's correct! How long we didn't hug our parents and tell them "I love you"?
It's long! From a kid till now, a teenager, it had been more than 10years that i didn't hug them.
From the time i understand everything around me, I begin to scare.
I scare to lost them. Yet, i do not know how to treasure them.
I make them angry, make them sad, make them worry, make them hurt.
I wasn't a good daughter in the past, but i'll be a good one from now on.
On my mum's birthday, the present that i gave her was only a card. But, I promised her that i will do well in my exams. She's happy.
I know, my parent's want me to get good results, who don't want?
Before the workshop, and on that day of workshop, I asked them again, whether they want to come to the closing ceremony?
Their answer is no, they need to work, and they're too tired to come to my school.
At first, i didn't feel anything, since they don't want to go, it's okay.
But, after friday, I really hope they could attend the closing ceremony.
On that particular day, before the ceremony start, while having dinner, I called my mum, i asked her, is Dad coming? My mum say don't know. My tears began to roll down.
I told her why i want them to come, what Dr Ernest Wong wants to tell them.
She knew i was crying, she said she was working and she can't turn up, she'll call Dad and ask him. After hanging the call, i regreted. I know my Dad is tired after working for the whole day. I sms-ed my Mum, i told her, if Dad doesn't want to come, it's alright.
My dad call-ed me, he ask me the timing. I told him.
During the ceremony, students were asked to stand up and clap for parents to come in to the audi.
The moment i saw my Dad walked in, I almost cried.
Seriously, it's the first time, my parent attend any of my ceremony in school.
I know they don't like this kind of ceremony as they can't understand English.
It's a long time since i hug a person. &yesterday, I hug a lot of people.
Went home, I did hug my Mum! I love them, and i really love them alot!
Without them, there will be no me.
But, I don't know why, I still can't say out the 3 words from my mouth to them.
"I love you".
I don't know why i just can't say out. I want to, but I can't?
I know that Dr Ernest Wong, Ken and Peter told us that, "what you say is what you get".
What I think is also what i can do?

I want to get 5A1.
It's the first time i had a goal. Seriously, past few years, I'm satisfied once I can be promoted to next year. But this year, I not only want to be promoted to poly, I also want to get good results!
And therefore, I should end this post here and go study! ^^

Last but not least,
Thanks Dad&Mum, Dr Ernest Wong, Ken, Peter, Teachers and Friends! :D

2009-04-15T19:52:00.002+08:00

Hello, I'm back-ed to post! ^^
Tmr is the first day of Superteen. My feeling is => Excited? Nervous? Boring?
I actually quite looking forward to this workshop.
I want to be motivat-ed to start revising, start my studying now!
&&, i really hope my parent's will be able to go on this coming sat.
But, it seems like none of them wants to go.
I don't know why, but i feel quite disappointed.
Maybe is like what Mr.Chong said, "once in a lifetime only"..
But, they doesn't wants to go, I have no choice either, can't ask me to force them ):
Forget it, since they don't want go, i'm acc by my friends! ^^
Looking forward to SUPERTEENS! :D

2009-04-07T18:56:00.006+08:00

TO: 哥哥！

哥，我不知道你还有没有读我的部落格。我只想告诉你，我不知道我还能承多久...我好累，好辛苦！我以前那个哥哥去哪了？是谁带走我那开朗，幽默的哥哥？还给我好吗？哥，你在进兵前告诉过我，要我好好照顾爸爸妈妈，但是，你是怎样对他们的？现在你却说，他们会自己照顾自己...爸爸妈妈已经老了，你是不是打算永远都这样对他们呢？昨天，送你回兵营的路上，我哭了.. 你知道吗？我在想，几时才能回到像以前那样，每次你回来都是开开心心的.. 每天都能听到爸爸妈妈的笑声，而不是他们问我，你今天有没有打电话回来！他们有多么疼你，你难道都不知道吗？你的改变很大，也很快，你就好像变成一个我一点都不认识的人，一个陌生人...跟你讲话，你不回应我，我不生气，反而，我好难过！好久，好久你没像以前那样，晚上到我房间来陪我玩，陪我聊天了！现在连跟你讲句话，都好难，好怕..
哥，我不要失去一个哥哥，一个以前多么疼我的哥哥！我不要失去一个疼我的人！我需要你们，没有你们任何一个人，我不知道要怎么办！你是我哥哥，是我最亲最亲的哥哥，我不要一个冷血的哥哥！不管是谁，把我我认识的哥哥还给我！！我要你替爸爸妈妈着想，因为他们都在为你着想.. 你知道吗，他们都好担心你叻！你要怎样才能回到以前那样?我的要求不高，只要你不对爸爸妈妈冷淡，就好了..我不在乎你对我怎样！看到他们伤心，担心的样子，我的心，痛了，粹了！我不要任何在我身边，关心我，爱我，疼我的人不开心！哥，我觉得你有事情才会有那么大的改变！我只想告诉你，爸爸妈妈对你付出的，比你想象中来的更多！一生只有一次，爸爸妈妈那么辛苦把我们养大，你也20了，也应该会想了，他们每天辛辛苦苦出外做工赚钱是为了什么？我多么希望妈妈能每天都在家里为我们做菜，我多么希望每天读书回来，家里不是空荡荡的。我想你也曾经这样想过吧？你不觉得时间过得很快吗？你20岁了，我也17岁了，这也证明，他们也渐渐变老了.. 你进兵也有一年多了，这一年来，是谁每次驾车送你进兵营的？我不知道你是怎么想的，我只知道，你现在所做的事是在伤害爸爸妈妈！我想告诉你，现在我失去的不只是快乐，我也失去了，一个曾经很疼很疼我的哥哥！

文彬，我不知道为什么每次你都要久久发一个信息给我，是要我永远记得你吗？而且，你传来的信息是能够让我再次为你哭泣的信息！我好想问你，你到底要我怎样啊？！你已结婚，已有孩子，已是爸爸了叻！我曾经很爱很爱你，我现在很想很想你，我以后会渐渐忘了你！这是我想跟你说的！如果你不是M'sia人，我想我现在爱的人还是你！但是，晓云比较适合你~希望你，她，还有那可爱的Darren会永远的幸福！放心吧，我现在还没把你忘了！^^

[曾经拥有的不要忘记，无法得到的更要珍惜，属于自己的不要放弃，已经失去的留作回忆。人生就像一张有去无回的单车票，没有彩排。每一场都是现场直播。把握好每次演出便是最好的珍惜。将生活中的点滴的往事细细回味，伤心时的泪，开心时的醉，都是因追求而可贵。日落不是岁月的过，风起不是树林的错。只要爱过等过付出过，天堂里的笑声就不是传说。再美的日子如果没有人牵挂也是一种遗憾。也许祝福只是一种形式，但的确能给心灵带来温暖..]

好长的一侧简讯，谢谢你！:D

2009-03-26T17:26:00.009+08:00

Happy Birthday

Myself! :DD

Thanks alot of people for their wishes! & of cus presents!! ^^

Madeleine, ShiHui, JunWei, HweeZi, YanPing, GeraldineToh, XueWen, MingLin, HuiLuan, ZhengYong, SamuelAng, ShuPing, Jessica, Emerald, HuiEr, PeiLing, IvanPoh, WeiSheng, TingRui, Aqilah, PeiXuan, LiTzuan, RuiSheng, Ahmad Sufyan, JustinHo, BryanQuak, JerroldQuek, NicholasLee (ex).

Of cus, Daddy, Mummy& Bro!

I wanna say a loud & big thanks to class 5B!!!

THANKS for the BIRTHDAY SONG that you guys sang for me in MATH lesson.

Last but not least...,

MR CHONG. haha! Thanks! ((:

(any left out, tag me, thanks! I really wanna know! :D)

Can i have a wish of happybirthday from you too?

2009-03-24T20:33:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

MUMMY! :DDD

(rmb: I'll love you forever!)

生日快乐

2009-03-23T21:12:00.003+08:00

The day we went out for my celebration (:

Thanks girls! ^^

2009-03-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

The day which Principal's talk held. [7pm]

2009-03-23T20:53:00.005+08:00

During holiday's POA remedial. Nothing to do =.=

2009-03-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

It's time to LET GO!

2009-03-17T17:53:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the MT mock exam.
Emo-ing in the early morning, while doing paper1, i almost cried out.
I have no idea, my mind was in the blank& i could think of nothing!
Just hoping i won't do badly for my mock exam.

Went to MT remedial today. Actually did nothing much.
Told to do a compo. &hand up when sch reopen.
Went buy lunch and went home.
Days after days. Feeling so restless each day passing. =.=
Tmr still need to be back to sch for POA. ):

I'm tired, tired of everything around me!
I cried& cried, but the feeling doesn't goes off.
The feeling came back again, make my tears roll non-stop.

Everytime, you're in my mind,
yet, you don't know!

2009-03-14T21:20:00.000+08:00

Seriously, i don't like myself ):

2009-03-05T20:37:00.003+08:00

Edite-d~

&&&&&&&&&&,
I fail-ed my ENGLISH! >< (E8)
I pass-ed my POA! ^^ (A2)
I pass-ed my MotherTongue (: (A1)
I pass-ed my Mathematics! -O- (C5)
I pass-ed my F&N ;D (B3)
I fail-ed my Combined Science! ): (E8)
I fail-ed my Combined Humanities too! :'( (F9)

Altogether fail-ed 3 subjects! ><

2009-03-05T20:35:00.002+08:00

Found this photo when trying to clear my folders.

Time flies! ):

I still remember the date } 17/12/06

lols! Hope he is doing well ! :D

2009-02-28T09:55:00.003+08:00

Firstly

HuaYi Sec's Performances in ACS (Barker) were BRAVO! :D

Secondly

I confirm fail-ed my C.H and C.S! ):

Lastly

I don't like MACS!
(Stop shouting his name!) I'm irritated. ><
[I've give up]

2009-02-24T18:20:00.003+08:00

I'm sad.

Seriously, I'm! ):

2009-02-19T20:20:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to
Chin Li Tzuan

Ah peh, old le laa. I still got 30++ more days. haha!
Anyway, wish you pass your o level smoothly! :D
Takecare too! Smile always! (:

left 34days ):

2009-02-16T20:47:00.003+08:00

37 days left.

Takecare boy! (:

2009-02-15T18:56:00.003+08:00

I shld give up! ):

Yesterday was a boring valentine's day for me! ):
Hope my birthday will be a wonderful one? Haha! :P
Finally i had finish all my homeworks! Don't feel like going sch tmr! ):
I'm feeling damn down this 2 days.
(I'll give you up 38days later)

Happy Birthday to you in advanced! :D

2009-02-13T19:35:00.005+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! :D

2009-02-06T20:44:00.003+08:00

STRESS! ):

2009-02-02T22:55:00.002+08:00

Last Thursday

All my cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents came to my house to eat dinner.
My house was pack-ed!! ;DD
So happy, it has being a long time since my house is packed.
Haha! ;P
On that particular day, B sms-ed me.
I didn't reply, he call-ed me, I didn't take his call.
I don't know what i did is correct or wrong. But i did seek for solution.
Cousins said ignored him. So, i ignored him for a day.
The next day, i sms-ed him.
Told him that i didn't blame him, he doesn't need to seek for my forgive.
& told him, it's like, impossible for us to be friends again..

Sat& Sun

It's was my first time in my whole life i'm so busy.
Haha! Finally it's over. I'm so tired! Yet, can't sleep early ):
Help-ed out with my cousins in my uncle's shop.
Selling praying items, running here and there.
Collecting money, changes, pack things.. etc..
Although tired, but happy?! My first experience. ;D

Today

Almost sleep in some lessons, but managed not to!
After school, went to CCK, lot 1 to buy pens and some assesments.
Walk-ed around, was looking for the camera i wanna buy.
But, they don't sell?!
Train-ed back to BukitPanjang LRT. Went plaza.
While i was walking to plaza, saw B and his friends.
All i can do was walk damn fast! My heart bump very fast too! ):
Stop at the traffic light, all i hope was, please turn green X 100!!
Because he was walking towards the traffic light which i was waiting at.
My legs wobble. I don't understand why either.
Reach-ed Plaza, didn't buy anything, & went home.

As for M, i know you're younger than me by 1 years old.
& i said before i won't want a sis-bro relationship.
But, i seems like falling deeper and deeper ):
Keep telling myself this yr is an important yr, can't afford to play anymore.
Maybe, i'll just keep it to myself? I won't tell anyone, including you.
Maybe when O is coming near, i'll eventually forget you?
haha! Hope so~

2009-01-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

Here to have a quick post.

Report-ed sick and went home early yesterday. Having "serious" stomach cramp.
Thanks Aaron for helping me to carry books and bag, brought me down, help me find F.T.
Sorry to trouble you and make you run a wasted trip.
You indeed is are wonderful class chairperson! We didn't vote for the wrong person.
Anyway, reach-ed home, lie on the bed, but can't get to sleep.
Rest awhile, &off i go start for my spring cleaning in my room.
There's so much "rubbish" in my room, so 1/2 day for me is definitely not enough.
Stop at evening, pack-ed things properly, sent bro into army, &went fetch my mum.

CNY celebration in school today.
Reach-ed school in the early morning, help out the decorations in our classroom.
Done spon. writing. Carry on our decor. and start our class party!
Love 5B alot sia! I never had such a experience before for the pass 4yrs!
Maybe it's the last yr, everyone treasures alot! ;D
Judges came to judge our class decor, and off we go to hall for performances.
Watch-ed performances until 12plus.
**OUR CLASS WON THE SEC4/5 CLASS DECOR! **
Lols, i know not any big deal, but we were high! ;X
After school, went out with X.W to J.P.
It's big, trust me, go have a walk if you have time!
I'll end here& continue my spring cleaning!
&&oh ya!
Happy Chinese New Year in advance!!