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(How much tears can i change you back?)
Went out today after school around 2pm. Went to return books and borrow books for my mum. The reason i can't go out with you is because this. I got the thought of explaining to you but, i was lazy. I was wondering, what's the meaning of explaining? I just simply don't like to explain, I don't know why too. I'll fix a time to go out with you, ok? Sorry anyway. Then went to marsiling after that. Something happen which force me to decide. I just hate to decide between to things or two matters i love so much. I can't hold my tears anymore and i burst out. At that moment, I really don't know what to decide. I know, no matter what decision i've decide will hate one of them. But i love both of them so much. Do they know how hard was that for me to decide? I was emo-ing all the way from marsiling to home in the bus. There's nothing i can do to stop the hurt between them. Bro, i need you home! I miss you so much, this home can't without you. I hate the government, why, why all guys need to serve NS? They took my bro's time which he can be with us . They make me feel so lonely, so sad. They not even torture him, at the same time, also torturing me.
I think i should leave you behind and carry on my life with our memories. I really do miss the times we were together. But, what can i do to hold you back; hold the time when you dotes me, love me, the way you disturb me, those nights you acc me sms. ________, can i have those times back from you? If tears can bring you back to me, i don't mind cry as much as possible i can. Remember this, I like you, but i don't love you. Simple, the reason i don't love you is: I don't dare to. I know it'll be more hurt.
Overall feeling: Sad, Hurt.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MADELEINE!
loves you loads! (:
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(I found out, I still like you.)
I really don't know what to do.
I'm regret that i delete your number in anger.
Maybe now, you arent the nicholas i know in the past.
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Nicholas,
The scar is there, and is always there.
There's no way for you to remove it...
I hate you for hurting me.
But yet, I can't bring myself to hate you. ;'(
When i first talk to you, I did not bother to ask your name.
You might think that i'm one of those girls who are insane.
But, you still did not notice it and see me differently.
Months has passed, and still, i did not bother to know you well and long to see each other.
Until some STUPID cupid touched my heart.
To get know you, but never knew how to start.
I was able to get closer to you unknowingly.
Never had the slightest idea on what came to me.
Yet, the most important part is that you become my friend.
Now that i found you, I do want to keep you till the end.
I feel so guilty of this feeling i kept on myself.
Just like a confused turtle who keeps hiding on his shelf i do not want you to know the feeling i have for you.
I rather you do not know anything then letting you know i liked you.
And, i really fcuk-ing regret. T.T
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(Happy Birthday to Priscilla& HuiLing)
Went to school quite late today.. But found out, wasn't late enough. LOL. Next time can sleep until 7am then wake up, prepare till 7.20am then slowly slowly walk to school. haha ;) Alright, today during math lesson, Mr.Chang let us watch movie, "The Cave". Quite boring at first but quite interesting when the movie carry on. But, halfway the movie, Mr.Seet came in to talk to the class about attendance, how many days we're left till Nlvl and we should work hard...alot alot. English lesson, Mrs.Manjit gave alot of homeworks. ;( so tired.. After recess, also english, but seems like a slack period. Serene, Shu.Ping, Jessica, Ming.Lin, Hui.Luan, Xue.Wen and me are having fun. Then Shu.Ping and i stared at each other for don't know how long. Suddenly, i felt so tired. Went to sleep for a few minutes until Mr.Fauroni came. Hais, actually Physics only got TYS to do, but he go down to the staffroom to take one big stack of worksheets. Stupid him laa. This June Holiday got alot homeworks. Chem: 3sets of different schools worksheets. Physics: TYS (whole book) and the 2sets of worksheets. English: 4pieces of Vocab and 2 or 3sets of different school papers. POA: don't need say, the most homework. Somemore, 2nd June got mock exam, 3rd June got POA remedial. Overall, only one word can describe. "HAIS". LOLS.
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I don't wanna walk alone like this. I want you to acc me. :'(
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(What is LOVE?)
(It's only the best four-letter word in the English Language!)
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(I'm crying like hell, yet you are enjoying like hell.)
Alright, I'm here to post what happen today in school. History was held in the audi. Nothing went in to my ears when Mr.Leong was teaching. I have no idea how come i'll chose history during sec2. Feeling a little regret, got the thinking of dropping history, but my cousin-sis say not worth, better don't drop. She working in the MOE HQ, better listen to her. LOLS. Get back my F&N paper today, i passed! But Mdm.Selina told the class that the marks from class test and CT2 will add together. =.='' I didn't did well for my class test. :( During F&N, don't know why, mood sink to the deep.. Hais. During CD lesson, took class photo for JianWei. Chem, was lying on the table, wasn't sleeping, but thinking of alot of matters. I don't know why, i always do things that i'll regret later on. After school, had chinese oral. Hmm, was quite fine to me. Tmr, maybe quite unpleasant. Cause is English oral. Got the kind of feeling that i'll fail.. Later gonna cook instant noodle eat.
Hmm, during chem, i keep thinking.. If i know i going to die one day cause of some stupid sickness, i wonder what'll i start to do. I confirm can't bear to leave my parents& family! What should i do? I'm scare, really scare. I know some of you might not know what am i talking about. But, some of you shld knw. I'm sorry if i give attitude. ><
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Happy Belated Mother's Day.
Celebrate with my mum on Sat.
As sun going to ahma's hse to celebrate..
To you,
I saw your friendster, saw your shoutout. I know you are hurt from your shoutout. Since you're hurt, you know that kind of feeling, why bother you to hurt other girls? To relieve your pain? Or, as what you say, to revenge. This is really very unfair. I know, i still can't forget you, but, time passes, i think i can and i will. Just wanna say, don't hurt anymore girls. :(
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I'm happy but tired today! ><
Went to bugis with xue.wen right after school. The 45mins bused tired me and xue.wen. Bought quite alot of things today. Bought the flower for Mother's Day. Bought a watch, a bf shirt, a ___ stand, a pair of slipper, aiya, many things laa. That's all i wanna post, nothing to post le. Btw, today de trip, damn funny la. Am i right, xue.wen. Especially the EZONE. So disappointed right. :(
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I cried in school today, due to some matters which made me difficult to control! Went home halfway the school hours. Wait-ed almost 1hour then went in to general office to make a call. The phone in general office is spoilt since morning? That's what the teachers said. Got back English and Mt paper result today! Both passed. :) But i was really very unsatisfied. Really must buck up, i must do the whole ten yrs series alr.
(Talking Craps) =X
loves my friends as much as before! <3
Hmm, this is just some of my thinking.
I didn't do anything wrong right? That's what i think and maybe what i confirm! So, can i know what makes you always show me attitude? I tried very hard not to show any attitude. But you showed it to me first. Okay, if like what you say last time, i have reflected myself justnow when i was coming home. I don't think i have show you any attitude to you the last few days or weeks. Am i right? Hais, i really don't know how to communicate with you all. Especially her! OMG, i know she hates me, but can i know why? Anyway, i don't like her either. LOLS! haha!
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Had my physics common test II today. I think will fail, cause i didn't really study yesterday night. I was playing computer, sufing net and watching televison show. :/ Alright, PE, did nothing except for running 1round around the school compound and 1round in the school field. After recess, took back our POA common test II, i pass! I thought i wouldn't pass as i keep changing the answers on the trading, profit and loss acc. During mother tongue, Ms.Law teach oral. CD lesson, Amath students having their common test while the non-Amath stay in class and Ms.Chua conducted CD lessons with us. Chemistry, Ms.Chew came only at the last 20mins of the lesson. And when the bell rang, home sweet home..
I wanna buy alot of things! Shirts, Bottoms, Watches, Slipper, Bag and presents!
Need money larhs. haha! ;P
*This 3 words are the most poisoning..!
26'MARCH92
ARIES, ♥
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