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I want to watch movie.
“不能说的秘密”
我相信的爱情是寿命不长的一种生命，短而美丽。
其实能遇见你，已经是不可思议了。
他，曾经给我承诺的他，我没有办法忘记.
他，给我的痛，永远刻在我心里.
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I am tired today, i think many pple are tired too, right? RUBBISH*
Went to see doctor today, $32, ohmy, i wanted to pay for it, but...my parents dontwant. Anyway, i got no money left too ='( Didnt eat much today. In the morning, just eat the donut which i bought yesterday. Afternooon, i eat a few mouthful of the noodles that my uncle bought. I didnt eat my dinner =) i am happy, cause i dontneed to eat. Pple may think i am crazy. People in other country is happy when they got food to eat.
Am i really not mature? I think so. If i am mature, i will not be craving for someone who can love me, who can care for me, who can takecare of me, who can tolerate me, who can make me happy, who can be by my side when i need him. God, and devil. Which is controlling me most? I dontknw either. Am i thinking too much again? kor, just dont think too much yea. That is what i keep telling myself each and every minutes, every seconds.
_ _ _ _ _, i am writing your big big name here. If you see this post. Can you at least give me a respond? Just one is enough, let me knw you didnt disappear from my life. I may not knw you well, but...i wanna to knw you well. You understand? I cant be happy either if you are not happy. You are not a failure, no one in this world will be success all the time, same thing, no one will be failure all the time. There will be successes in your life. And i knw, if you try to achieve it and not give up, i am sure you can. Okay, believe in me just once. If i am wrong, i hope i am not wrong. =) Make me thinks i am correct okay? I am sure you will. Takecare !! :DD
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Didnt went to school today.
went to many places today. Go Lot1 first, then boonlay, causewaypoint and then bukitpanjangplaza. Go collect things.
Buy missydonut today. Especially go buy de, cause go out so long, then never buy things home, sound very bad hor.
So buy missydonut lor. Cant think of other things to buy le. Nothing to post about. End here. :DDDD
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Was back home at about 11.45pm. Reported sick, having sorethroat and cough. And dontwish to stay in school anymore. It makes me miserable. Bathe, and went out to school outside, see got homework anot. Wait there for about 25mins barhs. They release late, i went there early.
Just a small reply to what you had post in your blog :D
You sick, you still smoke, if i know sure scold you de. Next time dontever ever smoke "unecessary"okay? Your parents bring you here, so you should treasure your life even if they dontcare for you. You still have alot of friends, and your bro right. People around you are concern about you, only that you didnt discover. Dontknw how to continue with your life? It is just simple. Find something that makes you happy, find something to do that makes your life meaningful. Dontknw how to continue, you also must carry on your life everyday right. Nothing can makes you happy? Dontworry, i try to make you happy :DD
*Actually, this reply quite long wor :)
Friends, i knw i am wrong too. But do you knw how i feel when you guys taketurns to show me all kinds of faces? Forget it, i think that is no solution for our friendship to be how it is like in the past. The feeling is gone, just let it gone ba. No use quarreling right? :D so, just hope you find more friends that are better than me, find someone who doesnt show attitude. okay? And, find your true love too, i know you are craving for your truelove. Everyone needs love. i know. All this doesnt say it out from my mouth, but from my heart. So believe me once more, and of cus is the last time, just believe me last time. one last time. thanks and goodbye our friendship :DD
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*I'm really sorry about all the vulgar. Please forgive.
BITCH! BITCH!
I had ENOUGH! Even i talked to another person, "OTHER" people also wanna know what we talked about. Dontyou think it is damn ridiculors? You didnt change at all, is just that in the past i didnt know what kind of people are you. It is me who change damn loads right? I wontbelieve you anymore! I hate you to the core!! You guys treat me good when you all wants to or in a good mood, and when you all dontfeel like talking to me, i become TRANSPARENT to you all right? It should be you who should reflect and not me. I think it carefully, because of you, i change. I had stop scolding all the vulgar. But what about you? You are the one who starts to scold when i stop. Yesterday i only scold "fcukingass", you immediately turn your head over and ask who scold that. Please larhs, i didnt scold you okay. Even i wanna just say one vulgar out also cant ar? Or.., you also wanna to control my life? My parents dontgive me freedom, you also dontwanna give me freedom? I get scolded by my parents most of the time is because of you. But do you know it? I scare, i scare that i will lose you this friend if i tell you. All you guys know is "把自己的快乐健在别人的痛苦里" Everytime, when we quarrel, you will say i give you attitude, and complained to me that whenever i didnt talk to you or when i am sad, people will start to ask you what happened to me right, you tell me also no use, you should tell the person who ask you. It is their choice to ask you, not i ask them or force them de right. So how can you bring out this topic when we quarrel? Be fair alright?! You hadnt be fair to me since last time, no once before. As i say many times, you can change 360 degree celsius into another person, before and after huiluan or minglin come to school. It hurts me, do you know that. I am now fucking damn angry!! And, huiluan, i dontknw what i did that makes you so unhappy about me. You three are always the same. One person doesnt want to talk to me, the other 2 also dontwanna talk to me. Nevermind, i had enough. I dontwant to see yours faces again. You say i give attitude when i didnt, so i DECIDED to give you attitude right after recess!! It doesnt feel good giving others attitude okay. You are giving attitude to me too, so why arent you blaming yourself but came and push all the wrongs to me? I tell you guys, one day i sure become MAD. And one day, you all shall not see me in school if this carry on. If you dontbelieve me, let's shall see. I dontcare about anything now. I dontscare of anything now, even wants me to die, i am prepared. I am angry, damn angry!! what can cools me down now???!!!!
Just return home at about 4pm something as when to dental. thanks tingrui for accompany me. It tooks 1hr to help me with the fillings. Somemore need to go to the "Health Promotion Board" or the "National Dental Centre" to do further treatment for just one teeth. I wanna to say, just help me pluck out that teeth will do, dontneed so much trouble. haha!! i also dontknw what happen to my teeth. 1/4 or that teeth is missing?! hahaa. The dentist nurse told me that my teeth are lack of calcium and are soft. haha, SOFT??! So arent all my teeth gonna break down soon if it is all soft? Had a bad day today. In the morning was fine, but...after the morning assembly, all started to change. I feel like "something" had gone into my body. I feel so angry, and damn mad suddenly. Really suddenly. I cant tolerate how they treat me anymore. In the past, i use to tolerate, and didnt make any sound or noise since they dontwanna talk to me. But this time, it's really weird man, i dontknw where do i have the courage to show them my attitude. I am thinking, why are they like this. If they were me, will they be happy? or...they cant even tolerate? Now, i just hope and transfer school immediately!! I dontwanna see them anymore. shit it. And, i promise myself, i not gonna go to the same poly with them, if i go into the same poly, i rather go ITE. better off! ARRRGHH, forget it. I not that angry anymore. Thanks tingrui for being my listening ear. haha!!
Hey, boy, do you know that when i was feeling damn low, the first person i think of is you. I dontknw why either. I just wish that you can be my side and listen to me, talk all the craps. Make me happy, make me feels that there is still someone who really cares for me. But, where are you? I didnt get to see you today. You didnt attend school today again? You told me that you yesterday that you will attend school today de. Or.. izzit, you didnt recover? I treat you good, and treat you cold sometimes is because, i dontwant we to be too close. I dontwant jianwei they all know we know eachother. If not, he sure will shout in the class de. Sorry, maybe you think that i am giving you attitude, let me tell you, i am not! okay? And dont think too much. You should know what i am referring to. Believe me, dont suspect me, it hurts me too.
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I am sickening sick!
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WENBIN KOR, how fragile we are, prone to a disease call love. its a disease where no one can avoid or predict. if there is a cure i wish to give you this miracle
I love you, and i really did kor. We are not related-bloodsisterandbrother, but you treat me very good. Even my real kor didnt even tell me all this, he didnt wish to give me any miracle. He only scolded me stupid for falling in love with another wenbin. If i can, i really wish to go back to the past. To when i start to know him, and i will prevent myself from falling in him. But i know, this are only what i think and wish and it will never ever gonna come true. I am a emo person, i gets angry, sad, hurt and even jealous easily. I dontwish to, but i got no choice, this is what kind of person am i. I really do wish that i can be happy everyday without any emo.
today is a longlong day. hehe :D
sorry if i show you attitude today. :D sorry
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BOY, i didnt lie to you wor.
must believe me okay?! hehe :D
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WENBIN KOR, thanks. I wish you will be happy everyday too. :D
Today seems to be short?! Or because i dontneed to go for cca so to me it is short? Wrote spontaneous writing as usual in the morning. Topic is "Racial Harmony Day", i dontknw what to write. Just write less than half a page barhs =X At the end of the spontaneous writing, i write something funny to mrlee.
"P.S. teacher, there is nothing to write about Racial Harmony Day."
hehe, dontknw what teacher will reply. First lesson for the day is Math, MATH TEST!! I didnt study. Think will fail barhs. Thanks azhar wor. He knw what i am talking about =D
English did nothing much, teacher ask the class to write speech?! think so, haven finish writing. Bring home as homework. I hate POA teacher !! After he became our class co-form teacher, he became very proud. Feel like scolding him, but i know cant. hmm, sobsob =XX
After recess, is F&N, no teacher, but ms ee open the ITlab for us to do our coursework, i never do lehs. was suring the net. =)
something to say..
(*dontask me anything about this. i just post it out for fun, i have not being feeling good or happy nowadays!)
Someone send me this, feel like some true, some are not true. Dontknw la =))
MARCH=GORGEOUS
Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality. Very! sexy. Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the m ost way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of NE of these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.likes to keep theyre crushes kinda secret.pretty much flawless.
ohhhmy, i am flirt. Am i? I think so. hehe =D
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I feel so damn low now. I really donthav the mood to do anything.
ARRGHHH...what should i do?
Reflections of the sweet times we once had..
will never be the same again..
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I am too emo!
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I feel high and happy today? It's been a long time since i so 放开. After the matter of "him", i never being so happy like today. Does this mean, i starting to let go? God, i want to be single but, i need someone to dotes me. I need, and i really do!
First lesson for today is F&N, mdmselena didnt come again, but went to ITlab as usual to complete our coursework. During math lesson, nothing much happen. But during History lesson, many many things happen. Saw him, who add me in friendster. And the 3 guys, yenann, haiming and litzuan keep use the "mamee" to throw me and xuewen, then i dontknw what happen, keep at there laughing, i feel so stupid =X Recess, jessica gave me a packet of mamee, i start to throw back to them in the class of 3G. So, Ivan, the environment v.p need to sweep the floor. hehe. okay, i will stop here now.
是我傻，还是我笨？
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Happy Birthday to
my dear brother,
AIK QI SONG!!!
love you always =)
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Happy Birthday to
ANG YEN ANN!
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end of pictures.
FirstPicture: Picture of Chemistry Lab.
SecondPicture: Tingrui's backview, Angel frontview.
ThirdPicture: JingMin. =X dontangry wor.
ForthPicture: Jessica. haha! looks retarted! =X
FifthPicture: P.O.A = Picture of Ameline.
LastPicture: Wanted Number1, haha. Me lehs.
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Wrote Spontaneous Writing in the morning, and English lesson follow by next. Took back our chemistry paper, ohmy, i did pass but, but, i didnt do well!! SocialStudies was before recess, I was sleeping in the class, and teacher didnt notice it. haha =X During recess, do nothing much. POA was next, having a class test. I dontknw how to do everything, sure fail this time, cause i donthave the time to study the day before. Went to make identify card and ez-link card yesterday. When i reached home, it is already 8pm something, and i haven even eat my dinner. So after i eat my diner, no mood to study ^^. haha. =) Should end here le. Just last sentence. Those who saw your picture been upload by me, pleaseplease dontbe angry okay?
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I am so happy today, i dontknw why either.
ohmy, i cant believe that he out!! ='(温俊杰
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Sorry, justnow i was having a stomach pain, so i walk fast back home.
really sorry, hope you understand.
If you saw this, can you please sms me?! thanks too!
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I really miss my ahgong & ahma!
and
I wont forget the times i had with my cousins
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I am not happy today.
that is all i wanna say ='((
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On friday, have a good talk with my "bro". I really wanna to thank him =))
我想是时侯该放手了!?
我爱过一个人, 这个人, 不管走到哪里, 总是会浮现和我幸福的影子, 不管是哪个地方, 都好像都有我和他走过的痕迹, 而这道痕迹, 能让我听不见任何的声音, 看不到任何人, 因为这样, 就能让我细细回味我和他的一切。即使真的不想见到这些地方却..., 不听话的要来! 虽然到最后, 他背叛了我, 但, 他在我心里始终都走不掉...心, 痛久了, 就坚强了, 但并不代表不会再痛。我一直等待他出现向我解释所有发生的事情, 但是...他出现了, 他并没有向我解释, 他只是告诉我他要结婚, 还有三个字。“对不起”, 我要的不是这三个字！我不知道是我太执着, 一直不肯放手, 还是...还是, 我拿得起, 却放不下?
okok, back from work. Now at home, posting =) Feeling damn tired in the early morning. My air-conditional is spoilt? :'( I feeling so hot yesterday night. Nevermind, i am use to it lerhs. Tomorrow there is no school due to "youthday". I didnt touch my homeowrk yet. I dontknw how to do chemistry, how how?! Anyone wish to teach me? hehe=)) Ehhhh, i think i should post till here barhs, see ya guys in school on tuesday. Takecare!
26'MARCH92
ARIES, ♥
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