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JINGMIN - i change lerhs larhs . your reaction need so 夸张吗？
¤ŽħέηŴзї™¤ - Thks arhs , will tagg yyou asap ! takecare ya !
XUEWEN - YO !! hey hey , i not a confronter . 我还不到那个资格或知道怎么 confront people !! hehes =)) takecare too !!
HUILUAN - lovee yyous too ! muackxx ! hahas !
RUISHENG - of cus yyou are brave , you say out something that we dare not say . takecare ya !
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arghh ~~ 烦啦！！！dont know what happen to me . stupid me larhs ! i hate myself for giving other people my STUPID attitude larhs ! and i cant stop that . i am sorry guys , if i did offence you , please come to me and tell me ! thks !
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arrghh~~
stupid miss __ larhs !! she just simply loves to wronged people . she dont make things clear before punishing people . she just damn fcuk off ! The fcuking ass HUM fadzil dont dare to admit for what he had done , no guts to admit , then dont do larhs . only know how to cause trouble . SAMUEL , *(dont know how to spell his surname) i support you ! hahas =)) really very * pei fu you lehs , never thought that you will say out those words . fucking attitude sia !! but i think it cause a great problem to you . and ruisheng , you also very brave sia , say wanna miss chew to teach us , i wonder how the teacher feel when she heard that . actually i got abit pity her , or should not say pity her , should say ...eh , dont know la . just think that like that so straight told her that we wanna miss chew to teach abit to hurt barhs . she also human , also got heart . aiya , dont know larhs ! she gives us her fucking stupid attitude first derhs , so we just simply revenge back or give her back what she had gaves us ! tmr i think we gonna go to chemistry lab very late ! cus she today release us very late . so we gonna one whole bunch go to her class LATE !! heck care her . but confirm that *guai kia , alvinlim sure will go there on time !
i never know when i step on your tail , everytime you just simply like to show me your attitude . and everytime , i just never say anything out and swallow my anger down my stomach ! i also got limit derhs okayy !! because of you , i dont really that dare to talk to the person you like , why ?!? BECAUSE i scare you angry . i scare you JEALOUS ! comeon , almost everyday you show me your attitude . when can you stop that ? i at school never always talk to you because i feeling down , you dont know how i feel . you dont know what had happen to me at home , in work , in school , in relationship ! YOU JUST DONT KNOW ANYTHING !!! so can you stop showing me your attitude ? i surely confirm will appreciate it derhs !! thks ! you are still my friend no matter what . even if you continue showing me your attitude . but please change . =))
bro , whatever you scare about , i am even more scare than you ! i am the youngest between the four of us in the family. i want you to be what you are last time . i never see you smiling to me , laughing with me since long time ago . maybe you will come to my blog and read this , and maybe you will not . i did not blame you for not giving me present , never wish me or even forget my birthday totally . i only wish that we can be what we are last time , at night , i will go to your room , lie on your bed , and start chatting with you , joke with you . or even share my secrets with you . but now ... it is so difficult for me to grant my wish . bro , we are always one family , no parents wont love and dotes their own child . i love you ~~
sorry , today derh post quite long .
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY " TINGRUII !!!
look high and low in school . i siao derh larhs , in the early morning , i like siao char bo like that . keep shouting back to LESLIE . haha =) sorry arhs . F&N teacher never come then D&T teacher also never come . so free period lorhs . Yesterday night too lazy to write out the compo that i suppose to hand in , instead , i type out and print it out . Cher say nvm ! nothing much happens today . Just i think have some unhappiness with xuewen barhs . but it is all OVER !! hahas =))
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MYSELF !!
such a boring birthday to me this yr . actually wanna go meet him in angmokio then go woodland meet his friend derhs but then , in the end , i didnt go . cus i had no enough time to go =) i really damn hate this yr derh birthday !!! stupid larhs . i really wanna to meet him derh , i dont want to leave him alone derh , but i had no other choice to chose .
Starts at 17/12/06 , ends at 02/03/07
Last yr 17 dec , i know him because of an accident . He met accident when going to work . before that , i already like him , and my cousin know about it . when i recieve the news from his boss , i am so worried that i burst into tears . and my cousin told me that she got his number , she give it to me , i started to think , should i sms him ??!!?? in the end , i did sms him , and because of that , our story starts ! we keep smsing to each other everyday , even if he came back to work , even if i can see him , but we cant talk to each other face to face . because of my parents and his boss , no one know about this matter except my cousin . he needs to go back to MUAR after a few days , and he went for one week then come back , and that one week for me is like one month . before he came back , he called me from MUAR , i didnt know who is that and i didnt answer . and he sms me , that is why i know his malaysia number . He came back and he treat me very cold , i ask him why he treat me so cold , he say me back , he said it is me who treat him cold first . i swear , i did not ! he said that "someone" said i wanna JIO him , he stupid larhs , he so buaiba , say i wanna JIO him . then another person told him that that "someone" want ask for my number .WTH , how come i dont know bout it ?? stupid larhs , they keep talking craps beside him . and he just gonggong go believe them instead of me . he even ask me izzit i dont love him anymore . arrgh ~ my heartbreak ~~ . before 2007 and that is the last day of 2006 , he send me a message , 曾经拥有的不要忘记，属于自己的不要放弃，辛苦得来得更要珍惜，已经失去的当做回忆，走过的路已成过去。I finally know why he gonna send this message to me lerhs . I promise him , i wont leave him although i know it would be a empty promise . He promise me before too . from the start , people told me not to give in too much , but i just ignored them , i did not listen to them . now , i feel hurt . not just one day hurt , is like forever hurt . hahas =)) after the new yr , i told him before to forget me , but in the end , i still chose not to let go him . if i had let go him that time , i think i will not get that hurt . he dont reply my message until the day i went to 南大 to find him , he then sms me . I really cant sort out what the hell he thinking , he is driving me dead ~ ! Before chinese new yr , he went back to malaysia again . and never be back after new yr . i sms him one day , i ask him when he gonna be back , and that is when i knew he got a girlfriend in malaysia too . actually i not that surprise , i know that he sure got girlfriend derhs . it hurts ! hurts like hell ! he came back last last weeek , and he went back to malaysia last monday . because he need go hospital , he is not feeling well . that is my cousin told me derhs , i was so shock , and at the same time worried , although i and him had no relations lerhs , but i cant just see him went hospital without knowing what is happening right ??!?? and actually just now gonna meet him derhs , but ...
so in the end ,there is still no ending for us although from the start i already know the ending lerhs . hmm , not gonna for another relationship cause i still cant forget him .
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THKS HUILUAN , XUEWEN , TINGRUI , MINGLIN, JESSIE , GERALDINE TOH , LESLIE PEK , JUNWEI AND SHIHUI AND MANY MANY MORE FOR THE PRESENT !! THKS ALOT !
THKS CHARMAINE ANG , FIONA , JESSICA TAN , JERROLD QUEK , CHOO WEN BIN , SHUPING , HUIER , SUFYAN , RUISHENG , LITZUAN , HAIMING , YENANN and many many more for the wishes !! hehes =) love yyous guys !
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HUILUAN : LAOPO , thks arrhs . must takecare too ! lovee ya ! muackxx !
SERENE : you takecare too !! ~
RUISHENG : thks for the wishes . i wanna to work hard in my studies but at the same time i will not force myself to forget him . because i know i cant forget him !!!
TINGRUI : your blog derh song also very nice lehs =)) wahaha , takecare LOADS !
ZHENWEI : hahas =) nevermind , take your time . takecare arhs !
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keep yawning during english lesson .
sorry cher , not i want derhs .
i just cant stop yawning , hahas =)))
cook curry laksa andd dont know what potato today during F&N lesson .
after cooking , i become very "high" . ( i mean emotion larhs )
but then , after recess , dont know why , i suddenly feel very fustrated !!! andd how i wish i can SCREAM ~~~ !!
i keep anyhow think !!! think about matters that i dont wish to think bout !
sorry cher , not i want derhs .
i just cant stop yawning , hahas =)))
cook curry laksa andd dont know what potato today during F&N lesson .
after cooking , i become very "high" . ( i mean emotion larhs )
but then , after recess , dont know why , i suddenly feel very fustrated !!! andd how i wish i can SCREAM ~~~ !!
i keep anyhow think !!! think about matters that i dont wish to think bout !
what happens ~ ???
我已经失眠两天了，
我到底几时才会停止想你？
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still got __ days to my birthday .
actually i not really looking forward to that day . =)
because of some reasons !
我们已经结束了，不要再对我那么温柔 =）
我宁愿你骂我 ，或者不理我 。
可是为什么你要叫我别恨你 ？
对不起我爱你！
我知道这六个子不能代表什么，但是...
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dont get a chance to see him yesterday .
think he went back to **** .
get back my report book today .
luckily MR . BERTRAN LEE CHAI PIN YEUN KWONG dont want see my parents .
PHEW !!!
hehes =)
HE write the remarks same for i think every single one of us in the class barhs .
so stupids ; so lazy !
andd andd , his signature so UGLY !!!
I got 3A1 ; 2 B4 ; 1 C5 andd 1 U .
sigh *
i not happy with my results !
i gonna buck up this term . if nt ...
later kana retain . =)
no mood to post anymore .
end here ...!! :DDDD
takecare LOADDS !! muackxx !
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缘就好像流星，来得快消失得也很快，
可能有一天你把我的名字给忘记，
但你一定得记得我们有过的回忆！
一生中就只有这一天。。。
认识到你我真的很快乐！
可能有一天你把我的名字给忘记，
但你一定得记得我们有过的回忆！
一生中就只有这一天。。。
认识到你我真的很快乐！
*this is what he send me today . which made me cry almost the whole day !
放心吧，我从来都没有恨过你。
真的！我也不会把你的名字给忘记！
就当你所说的“有缘无份”。
我会记得曾经拥有！
真的！我也不会把你的名字给忘记！
就当你所说的“有缘无份”。
我会记得曾经拥有！
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last few days dont get a chance to post .
hehes =X
yesterday went to woodland , take i/c derrhs photo .
then want go home lerrhs .
but then ahma ask me whether i wanna stay anot .
i say ehhh ...
she ask me to stay and work lor :D
work till night .
yesterday night happen something .
i think i heard my phone just rang 1 time .
i mean just rang 1 sound then no mre lerrhs .
but i cant immediately go see who is that . cus i talking to my dad .
is HIM* .
he prank call me first derrhs lor . then i prank call him back .
now he prank call me againn . STUPID LARHS ~
instead , i never thought of prank call him again .i sms him !!! andd i off my phone immediatelyy !!!
if i dont off my phone , my heart will keep pumping veryfast* .
this morning , i got 4 new messages sia .
sorryy guys if i reply you late ...=)
ruisheng - dont need to say sorry . it is not your fault . stay happyy ~
tingrui - i know very clearly that it is not worth . But i try very hard to forget him . takecare too ~ hehes
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yesterday went to school with LAOPO and XUEWEN .
hehes =)
for the dont knw what "english enrichment" .
when we reached there , only saw 2 pple our class de and one from 3F .
we all want go home ;
but never larhs . MR.lee got come lehs .
and teach dont knw what "economics" , listen till i wanna sleep .
he keep looking at me , then i keep yawning at him .
WAHAHAHA !
then xuewen told him that we three need go off at 1.30pm .
* the lesson starts at 1.00pm .
he just dont let us go lor , stupid de larrhs .
then bout 2pm lerrhs , he then say those who come early can go first .
the first to stand are the three of us , hahas ..
:D
after then went to LOT 1 , i gonna find present for my mum .
but in the end , so disappointed =)
headed to plaza next , go there , buy nothing , just walk here walk there ,
saw CHONGHAO and SAMEUL ANG .
hahas !!!
went home after that .
walk till my legs gonna BREAK lerrhs larhs .
HE* called me last night .
i dont think was a called .
it rangs 2 times and hang up .
and i was unable to pick up the phone on time .
i think even i have time to pick up the phone ,
i wont take HIS* call .
i scare he say those kind of words to me .
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went to school today in the early morning .
for the F&N thing .
taught the primary student how to bake bread pizza and how to make coco-mikeshake .
hehes =)
quite fun larhs .
some of them are cute . but most of them are naughty .
xuewen told me that she saw one guy look handsome :D
then i found out that got one guy de name also call *** *** .
hahas , then i keep looking at him ,
he feel weird sia , he also keep looking at him . =P
i think he feel paiseh too . hehes .
we teach 2 classes . so tired sia .
after all the lessons , we went to find mr.mohammad .
for our history common test paper . hehex .
when he was giving out , all of us were so scare .
when he called my name , i thought i am going to get scolding .
but the opposite , he say i passed .
YEA ...!
he say must include all the facts ...blar blar blar .
although de result not very good , but i still happy .
cause that paper i anyhow do de lehs .
must buckup now ...!
suddenly feel that studies are so important .
i know i still cant forget him .
and MAYBE , i cant accept another relationship .
BUT , BUT , BUT .
i need someone to confront me when i am sad .
to be by my side when i need him .
and the person i want is still HIM* .
sigh *
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Never went to work today .
cause of some reasons barhs .
problems seems to like me alot .
"they" keep coming to me .
so boring staying at home .
so long never stay at home for the whole day lerrhs .
it just feel SUCKS *
i dont like that kind of feeling .
i got nothing to do at home .
i want to work ...!!
OMG , why izzit 南大 again ???
can i dont go ?
i know the ans sure is NO ..!
i hate that place ! that place brings me SORROW and HURT !
stupid larhs .
recieved the registration of i/c de form lerrhs .
hahas , i gonna have my i/c NOT very soon .
i know that by the time i can take my i/c will be next month le .
you give me all sorts of problems .
and push to me without helping me how to solve it .
why ?
just because of one person , you all need to quarrel ?
and became so serious .
spare a thought for me can ?
PLEASE , i cant take it anymore .
i am just a 15 yrs old girl , too much stress to me will make me **** !!!
you ask to go when you need me .
when you dont need me , you dont even care for me ...?
i dont want this to happen .
dont bully HER* , pls .
i cant bear to see HER* cry anymore !!!
it HURTS me .
i need someone to care for me ,
to confront me when i cry .
to ask me " are you alright " .
but all this seems so far to me , like it gonna never happen to me .
STOP using all sorts of knives to stab my heart !!!
PLEASE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ...
JESSICA TAN !!! 生日快乐 ！！
reached home ~~
today in sch seems to be a short day 。
mr.mohammad went to malaca , so no ss and history class 。
today also the last day of term 1 。
so fast ! yea
hahas =）
i have cca today , but JIEWEI told me that i dont need to go 。
then i dont go lor . but MUST mark my attendance lehs 。
if not , lter kana get scolding from teacher 。
So went to Plaza with XUEWEN after HUILUAN went for cca 。
before that , we took some pictures 。
huiLuan's backview while walking up the stairs 。
in the toilet 。 xuewen;me;huiLuan！
xuewen and me at plaza's toilet ! =)
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took back my social studies paper today .
i thought i going to fail very badly this time .
but i pass , but not very good too .
14/25
when i told my mum about this , she say "HUH"?
she thinks that why i get so low !?!
tmr MR.muhammad never go sch bah .
got 2 hrs of free lesson . but surely got relieve teacher come de .
i dont care how deep you had hurt me .
i still wont hate you .
i dont care how many times you had lied to me .
i still wont hate you .
i know that you wont love me anymore ;
you dont belong to me anymore .
but i still willing to wait .
just LEAVE ME ALONE and let me WAIT alone .
in the past , the moment i knew the truth ,
how i wish i can slapp you immediately !
but i know i cant bring myself to do it , just because i dont wish you to get hurt by me .
I know that all those sweet words that you told me are lies .
but i just cant stop believing you !
i know the moment you went back to ******** ,
you dont love me anymore .
once you went back , in your heart you only have HER !!!
i know the person you really love is her .
the only her .
so promise me one last time , i hope you wont break this promise as well .
promise that you will CHERISH HER no matter what .
she is a nice girl who is willing to wait for you for so long !
and !!!!!
remember this , dont ever let me see you again .
that's the end !
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i have done nth wrong alright .
why make you to shout at me ?
how i know you two are talking SUCH a serious matter ..?
c'mon , pls la .
spare a thought for me can ?
after all i am your daughter .
when you are unhappy or whatever ,
i try all my best to make you laugh ! and yet , this is how you treat me ?!
i had it enough , i am a human too .
i have feeling too !
my heart is already broken , i thought i can forget all the pain when i am with you all .
but i am WRONG ...!!!
you all treat me even worst !
dont make me thinking of leaving the house , pls .
ONCE i leave the house , i wont step into again .
i MEAN what i SAY !
dont give me too much pressure .
rmb this , i am your daughter , not your enemy or ;
someone you give birth out to throw your temper at .
i tolerate you more than you tolerate me .
that is because in my heart , i still have you this father .
i RESPECT you with all my heart . but you didnt .
i found out , you dont know me that well at all .
even if i am your real-daughter .
everyday , you go to work earlier than me .
you come back later than me .
even if i were kidnapped , i think , you will be the last one to know .
just let it be that i am in wrong .
i had no strength to fight for my rights anymore !
am i that useless ?
can i chose not to wake up anymore ?
can i chose to lost my memories ?
can i chose to have a accident ?
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quite a long time since i post .
dont need to wait for him le . he wont be back .
i haven got back all my common test 's results .
done quite badly ...!
here goes my result ..
updated !
ENGLISH _ 35/45
MATH _ 13/40 -FAIL !
CHINESE _ 44.5/60
SCIENCE (PHYSICs) _24.5/40
SCIENCE (CHEMISTRY) _30/50
POA _ 27/45
F&N _ 41/50
SOCIAL STUDIES _14/25
HISTORY _ ???
that is all . the one(s) with blanks are i still dont know .
26'MARCH92
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